existential – Leonie's Art Blog

Pikmin 4 / Me, my pikmin and my space dog Oatchi!

By leonieyue Posted on 18 July 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with animatedshort, ArtistHustle, ArtistStruggle, asexual, asexuality, AutismTrauma, bluepikmin, bluesky, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, finalfantasy16, frayromantic, glowpikmin, healthUpdate, HustleCulture, hyperfocus, icepikmin, Illustration, indiegamedev, instagram, leonieyue, neurodivergent, NintendoSwitch, Oatchi, overthinking, personalTraumas, personalupdate, pikmin, pikmin4, pinkpikmin, platonicRelationship, purplepikmin, redpikmin, reflection, reflective, rockpikmin, romance, romantic, romanticSpectrum, shortFilms, shoujoAnime, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediabreaks, socialMediaEngagement, SocialMediaMetrics, socialmediaoverwhelm, SocialMediaReach, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, TakingBreaks, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TextSpeedpaint, Threads, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma, trauma, TraumaProjection, traumas, twitter, videoreflectivenotes, whitepikmin, yellowpikmin, youtube, オッチン, ピクミン 4

In this blog post:
– speedpaint text commentary for this fanart
– Twitter & social media woes
– not sure about my Thread account
– reflecting on some youtube videos, romance & asexuality, hustle culture, personal update & taking a break

Drawing for my birthday

By leonieyue Posted on 27 June 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with abandonment, anxiety, autisic, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, birthday, birthdayBreak, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fears, gratitude, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Illustration, insecurity, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, loneliness, lonelyArtist, overstimulated, overwhelm, reflection, reflective, rejection, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, scapegoat, self compassion, self portrait, selfAcceptance, selfAwareness, selfCare, selfdoubt, SuperLeonieMode, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate

Oh no

A mini reflective ramble & update

Penny Crygor longs to become the best singer scientist in the whole universe! [Warioware: Get It Together!] 🎵🎤🧪

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, beautyStandards, bowser, characterIllustration, ComputerTroubles, digital art, DiscordServer, entertainmentIndustry, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, girlhood, headphones, IlluminationStudios, Illustration, inventor, leonieyue, luigi, mario, Mario bros, microphone, movieThoughts, nerd, PennyCrygor, PerformanceAnxiety, pop singing, popsinger, princess peach, RATtestCovid, scientist, singing, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaEngagement, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TheSuperMarioBrosMovie, TimeAnxiety, Timelapse, uterineFibroid, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, Windows11, Womanhood, ペニー, ペニー(メイドインワリオ)

In this blog post:
– text commentary Penny speedpaint
– Spoiler Mario Bros movie thoughts
– grieving for losing some of my working art files
– reflecting on the horror of girlhood, beauty standards & aging
– personal updates & health

Laura Parton [D2 Dreamcast game]

By leonieyue Posted on 19 December 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Sketches, Timelapse Tagged with AceAttorney, anxiety, character illustration, characterIllustration, D2dreamcastGame, digital art, dreamcast, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, fanart, gloomy, HayaoMiyazaki, heartbeatirregularities, Illustration, LauraParton, leonieyue, NintendoSwitch, nintendoswitch2022, PhoenixWrightAceAttorneySpiritOfJustice, QualityCultureYoutube, snow, Splatoon3, Studio Ghibli, survivalhorrorgame, SwitchGames, switchgames2022, tense, tension, Timelapse

A little ramble about the game, personal update and fanart speedpaint at my blog ;D

Gameboy Link 💚💙❤️

By leonieyue Posted on 17 October 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Traditional Tagged with AfterAlterna, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, choice, ChosenFamily, comfortZone, complexFeelings, drawtober, drawtober2022, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyDraining, emotionallyProcessing, EmotionalSupport, emotionalWalls, empty, EmptySoul, EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnceMovie, existential, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, feltpens, felttipmarkers, gameboy, gameboy color, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, highlighters, homebodylife, Illustration, inktober, inktober2022, isolationlife, jaded, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, LeonieMugs, leonieyue, lifedirection, lifesuffering, Link, linktober, linktober2022, livinginthemoment, loneliness, ManagingEmotions, meaningoflife, movieThoughts, quiet, QuietObserver, rejectionSensitivity, sociallyAcceptable, solitary, solitude, Splatoon3doodle, textas, Traditional, traditional art, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma

Little blog ramble about this post, on Bayonetta 3, reflecting about “Everything Everywhere All at Once” & mugs ;D

StudyPost / Waiting for results to become a witch + timelapse!

By leonieyue Posted on 25 July 2022 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, Sketches, StudyPost, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, art studies, doubts, emotionallyProcessing, existential, existentialEmptiness, Illustration, leonieyue, lifedirection, personalupdate, photostudies, photoStudy, reflection, reflective, selfdoubt, slowStudy, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialMediaEngagement, SocialMediaMetrics, studies, study, studyPost, tolerance, Witch, witchacademy, witchcraft

Nothing to see here ;P

SuperLeonieMode 357 / Energy depleted (taking my late June bday posting break)

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2022 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with ArtCourse, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, bday, birthday, birthdayBreak, boyBands, crushes, depressed, disappointed, disappointment, drained, emotionalEnergy, energy, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, existential, existentialEmptiness, fatigue, friendships, gloomy, gratitude, growingupinthe2000s, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hopelessness, hypochondriac, Illustration, irritable, jaded, juggling, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, lowEnergy, lowMood, ManagingEmotions, ManagingEnergy, ManagingStress, mixedFeelings, moodSwings, motherDaughterRelationships, numbness, patience, period, personalupdate, postingBreak, processing, sadness, self comparisons, self portrait, sitting, sittingwithfeelings, slow, slowingdown, stress, SuperLeonieMode, teenageLifeThoughts, tired, TurningRed, TurningRedMovieThoughts

Reflecting about needing this posting and birthday break.

StudyPost / Kimodameshi 2022 Days 8 to 14 with more figure drawings!

By leonieyue Posted on 18 April 2022 Posted in LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, art studies, ArtChallenge, careerDirection, DrawingChallenge, easterBreak, existential, existentialEmptiness, figure drawing, figuredrawing, foodpoisoning, Kimo, Kimo4, Kimodameshi2022, leonieyue, lifedirection, photostudies, photoStudy, portraitStudy, reflection, reflective, sketch, sketchbook, socialmediaBoundaries, socialMediaEngagement, SocialMediaMetrics, studies, study, studyPost, stylisation, Timelapse

More figure drawing this week!

Reflecting on being slow paced and other anxious thoughts.

SuperLeonieMode 352 / When you fall into existential emptiness and silence + timelapse

By leonieyue Posted on 14 March 2022 Posted in Comics, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, anxiousLaugh, comic, complexFeelings, empty, emptyLaugh, existential, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, feelingNeutral, feelingNothing, feelings, headEmpty, howAreYou, Illustration, leonieyue, MentalHealth, mixedFeelings, NeutralDefault, NeutralMood, notgoodenoughFeelings, pause, silence, slow, slowLearner, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse

Not sure how to answer this question so I default to “okay”.
Reflecting about muted/neutral emotions & managing headspace.

Happy 36th Legend of Zelda anniversary with Princess Zelda, reflecting on the process + 22 minute timelapse!

By leonieyue Posted on 21 February 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with ArtCareer, ArtSignature, browsers, careerthoughts, cintiqWacom, existential, failFast, failingFast, failures, fanart, Firefox, Illustration, learningJourney, Legend of Zelda, leonieyue, Princess Zelda, reflection, reflective, socialmedia, socialmediabreaks, Timelapse, Zelda, ZeldaAnniversary

I reflect on making this Princess Zelda illustration, on my favourite Zelda games, I question my purpose like a frustrated artist and more :’)

SuperLeonieMode 346 / When your mind drifts away from the conscious world + timelapse!

By leonieyue Posted on 20 September 2021 Posted in Comics, Illustration, LeonieYue, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with absentminded, boredom, breathing, comic, consciousness, disappointment, emotionalEnergy, emotionallyDraining, emotionalWalls, empty, evolve, existential, existentialEmptiness, existing, fatigue, headEmpty, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Illustration, jaded, learningfrommistakes, leonieyue, lowEnergy, meditative, mundane, neutral, noThoughts, quiet, QuietObserver, reflection, reflective, self portrait, selfAwareness, sleepy, stamina, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse, tired, TolerateBoredom, trust, trustIssues, uncertainty

Low energy hermit thoughts :’)

Fanart / Absolutely innocent Tanuki from Crossy Road’s Japan update + timelapse! 🦝✨

By leonieyue Posted on 4 August 2021 Posted in CharacterDesign, Fanart, GiftArt, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with character design, CharacterDesign, characterIllustration, creativeRut, creativity, creativityRut, crossy, crossy road, CrossyRoadJapanUpdate, doneIsBetterThanPerfect, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, giftart, gloomy, hamsterWheel, hipsterWhale, Illustration, leonieyue, perfectionism, progress, raccoon dog, reflection, resignation, sumo, sumoTournaments, tanuki, たぬき, 日本, 狸

Family friendly raccoon dog (:
And I reflect about my art, what I post and mixed feelings on “progress”.

SuperLeonieMode 340 / Me and my little Leonies! On expressing & interpreting mixed, subtle feelings.

By leonieyue Posted on 5 July 2021 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode Tagged with ACNH, adultFriendship, adulthood, AnimalCrossing, AnimalCrossingNewHorizons, AnxiousAvoidantAttachmentStyle, art style, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, awkward, BeingMisunderstood, birthday, bittersweet, BodyLanguage, comic, complexFeelings, deadpan, disappointed, earningTrust, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, emotionalIntimancy, emotionalLabour, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyDraining, emotionalMaturity, EmotionalSupport, emotionalWalls, empathy, existential, facade, facialExpression, feelingCaredFor, feelings, frustration, GutFeeling, HappyFacade, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hotColdBehaviour, internet, interpretation, jaded, juggling, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, littleLeonies, making comics, ManagingEmotions, masking, MentalHealth, microexpressions, misunderstandings, mixedFeelings, not, notgoodenoughFeelings, personal, personalupdate, photo, reflection, reflective, rejectionSensitivity, self portrait, selfAwareness, selfCare, sensitive, sensitivity, sleepDeprived, SleepSchedule, sleepy, smallTalk, socialCues, socialHierarchy, sociallyAcceptable, sociallyExpected, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediabreaks, SocialMediaMetrics, socialmediaoverwhelm, SocialNorms, socialrecluse, SuperLeonieMode, tactless, ToxicPositivity, trust, trustIssues, twitter, validation, vulnerability, WorkingOvertime, あつまれどうぶつの森, あつ森, どうぶつの森

I ramble about my sappy mixed feelings and expressing & interpreting them in this blog post.

When I can’t really express how I’m feeling through words, through my awkward body language and my deadpan facial expression :’)

And reflecting on my birthday (which was over a week ago!) Please keep it to this blog; I don’t want to mention it on social media.

Fanart / Princess Daisy and Peach from Mario Golf Super Rush, timelapse & little E3 ramble

By leonieyue Posted on 21 June 2021 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Timelapse Tagged with ArtistStandards, ArtistStruggle, BoBurnham, BoBurnhamINSIDE, boundaries, BreathOfTheWild, E3thoughts, empty, existential, fanart, focus, foggy, gameRamble, GardenStoryGame, gloomy, housekeeping, HyruleWarriors, HyruleWarriorsAgeOfCalamity, Illustration, insecurity, KazuyaTekken, KnockoutHomeFitness, leonieyue, LeonieYueRambles, MarioGolfSuperRush, MentalHealth, overwhelm, personal, personalupdate, princess peach, princessDaisy, self comparisons, SmashBros, SmashBrosSP, SmashBrosUltimate, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediaoverwhelm, TheGreatAceAttorneyChronicles, Timelapse, toxicProductivity, twitter, uncertain, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, デイジー姫, ピーチ姫, マリオゴルフスーパーラッシュ

I ramble about games I’m looking forward to! And I’m taking a break next week :’)

Sketch for the day 02 / Pointing [pixivSketch 28/05/2021] + ramble on managing social media (LeonieArtRambles podcast #6)

By leonieyue Posted on 29 May 2021 Posted in LeonieYue, Podcast, Reflection, Sketches, Studies Tagged with algorithms, ArtChallenge, ArtForTheDay, ArtistBrand, ArtistStandards, artPrompt, AttentionEconomy, careerDirection, careerthoughts, contentCreators, creative, creativeRut, creativity, creativityRut, drawing, DrawingChallenge, existential, FindingANiche, influencer, LeonieArtRambles, loneliness, lonelyArtist, MentalHealth, niche, perfectionism, PerformanceAnxiety, personal, Personality, personalupdate, photostudies, photoStudy, pixivSketch, pointing, portrait, prompt, reflection, rough, sketch, sketchbook, SketchForTheDay, sketchpost, socialmedia, SocialMediaAddiction, socialMediaEngagement, tired, twitterAlgorithm, uncertainty

It’s my second sketch prompt!
Also Leonie rambles about feelings, managing social media, not wanting to post some of her art to twitter, mental health, perfectionism, niches, uncertainty, constantly evolving boundaries and how few people seem to read her blog 🙁

There’s also a podcast version of this blog post!

Tag: existential