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☺️ Kung fu Peach Part 3 [Princess Peach: Showtime fanart!]

By leonieyue Posted on 14 May 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection Tagged with acceptance, AchyKnees, alonewithcompany, anxiety, anxietyFuture, anxious, artistCommunities, ArtistCompetition, ArtistDesperation, ArtistHustle, ArtistStruggle, AutismAdulthood, BarbieMovieThoughts, basicLifeSkills, belonging, burnout, CreativePressure, emotionalIntelligence, envious, envy, fanart, fantasyOfAdulthood, fearOfAloneInTheWorld, fears, fightFlightFreezeSurvivalMode, FriendshipMileage, gooutsideTouchGrass, grumpy, HaroldHalibutGame, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hibernating, Illustration, insecurity, instagram, instagramstories, jealousy, KendrickTracks, KnivesOutGlassOnionMovie, leonieyue, loneliness, lonely, lonelyArtist, lowEnergy, LowPeriods, LowSocialEndurance, notvalued, overstimulated, Patriarchy, personalProjects, scapegoat, SelfConfidence, selfcritical, SelfPressure, social media, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaEngagement, socialmediaIsASlotMachine, socialmediaIsRigged, SocialMediaReach, SocialMediaVoid, socialZombie, StreamingAnxiety, streamingLeonie, StressEat, structureAndRoutine, strugglingForward, supportArtist, survivalArtistMode, TimeAnxiety, touchingGrassAdvice, unfairWorld

In this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ jealousy, dealing with discouragement, moving on from twitter (again), personal update & more

Happy Kirby anniversary x Year of the Dragon! 🐲Processing thoughts on the Barbie movie

By leonieyue Posted on 23 April 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with anxiety, anxietyFuture, anxious, BarbieMovieThoughts, comedySatireMovie, complexFeelings, corporateFeminism, dragon, DragonKirby, empathy, FakeVideoGames, fanart, fridgeTroubles, gender inequality, GhostRiderThoughts, GlazeAgainstAIScraping, houseCleaning, humanConnection, humanity, humanscomplex, Illustration, kirby, KirbyAndTheForgottenLand, kirbyAnniversary, leonieyue, motherhood, movieThoughts, NicolasCageMovies, subtitledSpeedpaint, Timelapse, toxicMasculinity, YearOfTheDragon, YearOfTheDragonFanart

In this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ processing thoughts on the Barbie movie
❧ personal update

🥰 Kung fu Peach Part 2 [Princess Peach: Showtime fanart] Anxiety as an artist, social media, relevancy, GenAi, twitter, networking & what am I even doing

By leonieyue Posted on 9 April 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate Tagged with anxiety, AnxietyFromNewsPolitics, anxietyFuture, AprilFools, Art Anxiety, ArtCareer, ArtistDesperation, artistSocialThings, ArtistStruggle, burnout, careerDirection, CareerRelevancy, careerthoughts, changeIsConstant, changing career, contentCreators, creative, creativeFulfillment, doomSpiraling, emotionalStorytelling, existential, existentialDread, fanart, FoamstarsEthics, forcingIntoThingsYouDontFit, freetochangeourmind, generativeAI, GlazeAgainstAIScraping, HustleCulture, hustlingExhausting, Illustration, innerPurpose, joyAndMeaning, leonieyue, lifeSkills, lowkeystress, ManagingStress, megadroughtFear, plagiarism, PokemonMiku, princess peach, princesspeach, PrincessPeachShowtime, purpose, sensitive, SensitiveSnowflake, sketchbookThoughts, slow, slowingdown, social media, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediaIsASlotMachine, socialmediaIsRigged, SocialMediaMetrics, SocialMediaVoid, StreamingAnxiety, stress, StruggleAdapt, sustainableArtCareer, twitter, TwitterVentAgain, volatileIndustry, wariowareMoveIt, youtubers

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble!
❧ trying not to spiral with anxiety and fear as an artist – relevancy, GenAI, social media is frustrating, twitter & not knowing what I’m doing
❧ reflecting on artist networking
❧ personal feelings, update & more!

🪺🐇🎀Bunny time with Big Baby Chicken 🐤🐔🦆 [Fanart for the Crossy Road Easter character update]! Social media, health assessment tool, stress & anxiety

By leonieyue Posted on 29 March 2024 Posted in Collaboration, Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with anxiety, breastCancerCheckUp, breastCancerRiskAssessment, crossy, crossy road, CrossyChick, crossyChicken, CrossyMallard, crossyroad, crossyroadBigBabyChicken, CrossyRoadUpdate, dentist, easterBreak, fanart, focus, grindingTeeth, headspace, hipsterWhale, Illustration, intrusiveBadMemories, juggling, keepingBusy, leonieyue, lowkeystress, ManagingStress, OnPodcasting, personal update, physiololgicalstress, podcastMaking, spiraling, stress, teethShenanigans, tenseBody, toxicStress

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble & subtitled timelapse!
❧ personal update, breast cancer risk assessment tool & more!

🤛 Kung Fu Peach [Princess Peach: Showtime is out!] Autistic feelings, “authentic content” & Nimona movie thoughts

By leonieyue Posted on 22 March 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with 1to1CatchUps, acquaintanceBoundaries, ActuallyAutistic, adultFriendship, algorithms, antisocial, anxiety, authenticity, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, AutismEmployment, autismfocus, autismFriendships, autismLife, AutismTrauma, autistic, booktok, ContentCreationProblems, ContentHustle, contentVoid, creativity, deadpan, envy, fanart, fastfoodcontent, fightFlightFreezeSurvivalMode, FriendshipBoundaries, friendshipc, FriendshipCapacity, friendshipCompatibility, FriendshipMileage, FriendshipReciprocity, FriendshipsAreHard, grassisGreenerOtherside, grumpy, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, historyofbooks, IdealSocialSituation, Illustration, intrusiveBadMemories, KungFuPanda, leonieyue, lowEnergy, LowSocialEndurance, masking, MinimallyVerbal, movieThoughts, niche, NimonaMovieThoughts, OnlineContentConsistency, overstimulated, overwhelm, personalBranding, rejectionSensitivity, resentement, reserved, sensitive, SensitiveSnowflake, sensitivity, sensoryOverload, socialAnxiety, socialEnergy, socialEvents, solitary, solitude, zoningOut, プリンセスピーチショータイムPrincessPeachShowtime

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble!
❧ reflecting on autistic feelings
❧ thoughts on the Nimona movie & not watching Kung Fu Panda 4
❧ reflecting on “authentic video content” & what do I do ahhh
❧ personal feelings & more!

🧺🌳Banner art for the new official Crossy Road Central Discord (with art boss’s help)! 🍕🦄🐔🐈‍⬛🦆🐖🐎📖 Blender learning & anxiety with recording & streaming

By leonieyue Posted on 20 February 2024 Posted in Collaboration, Commission, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, ThreeDart, VoxelIllustration Tagged with 3Dart, AliceWalsh, anxiety, ArtCollaboration, BlenderThoughts, contentSlop, contentVoid, creativeFlow, crossy, crossy road, CrossyRoadCastle, discord, flow, hipsterWhale, HipsterWhaleMarketingArt, Illustration, intenseWorkRest, learningJourney, leonieyue, magicaVoxel, PerformanceAnxiety, protectArtCreativeProcess, RealTimeRecording, scoutrager, slowingdown, StreamingAnxiety, voxelArt, voxelIllustration

In this blog post:
❧ ramble a bit about the thoughts and process behind this!
❧ shall learn Blender another time
❧ the official Crossy Road Central discord
❧ reflecting on my anxiety with real time recordings/streaming

📜🐉Happy Lunar New Year of the Dragon 2024 with Rejuvenation God Yomigami / 蘇神 & baby seahorses!🔮🏮 [大神 / Ōkami Lunar New Year Project] Trusting self, ghosting, stress resilience & more

By leonieyue Posted on 6 February 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, anxiety, art process, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, BeingAnOutcast, BeingMisunderstood, BeingPresent, beingTrueToYourself, bloodTest, Bruxism, Celestial Brush God, Chinese New Year, DetachmentLettingGo, dragon, emotionalDetachment, EmotionallyDetach, emotionallyMutual, emotionalMaturity, faceMask, fanart, friendsComeAndGo, friendship, ghosting, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, lifedirection, loneliness, Lunar New Year, ManagingStress, okami, OkamiLunarNewYear, openOfficeEnvironments, PerformanceAnxiety, petty, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, rejectionSensitivity, resentment, resilience, seahorse, self compassion, selftrust, stress, subtitledSpeedpaint, textcommentary, TextSpeedpaint, thirdPlaces, tiger, Timelapse, transactionalRelationships, YearOfTheDragon, YearOfTheDragonFanart, YearOfTheTiger, Yomigami, youtubevideo, 大神, 蘇神

In this blog post:
❧ the art & subtitled timelapse is back!
❧ doing dragon fanart this year!
❧ on trusting yourself, ghosting and resilience with stress
❧ personal update, the year of the dragon & more!

🎆🌠Happy New Year’s Eve with Crossy Road!🐔🎇 Reflecting back on 2023, 2024 hopes, rejection sensitivity, needs, boundaries & communication issues

By leonieyue Posted on 31 December 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with 2023artsummary, acquaintanceBoundaries, anxiety, art learning, ArtistStruggle, artsummary, autistic, autisticThings, babySteps, boundaries, communication, Confetti, crossy, crossy road, crossyChicken, defensiveness, FriendshipBoundaries, GodfatherTrilogy, HappyNewYear, headspace, Illustration, invisibleExpectations, leonieyue, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, NewYearEve, notbeingajerk, onlineBoundaries, parasocial relationships, PartyChicken, PartyPopper, reflection, reflective, rejection, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, rejectionSensitivity, sadness, SensoryIssues, slow, socialEnergy, socialEvents, socialmediaBoundaries, socialSituations, strugglingForward, TheGodfatherMovie, vulnerability

In this blog post:
❧ subtitled art process speedpaint video!
❧ reflecting on 2023 & 2024 hopes!
❧ rejection sensitivity, needs, boundaries and communication issues

Drawing for my birthday

By leonieyue Posted on 27 June 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with abandonment, anxiety, autisic, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, birthday, birthdayBreak, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fears, gratitude, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Illustration, insecurity, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, loneliness, lonelyArtist, overstimulated, overwhelm, reflection, reflective, rejection, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, scapegoat, self compassion, self portrait, selfAcceptance, selfAwareness, selfCare, selfdoubt, SuperLeonieMode, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate

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A mini reflective ramble & update

Penny Crygor longs to become the best singer scientist in the whole universe! [Warioware: Get It Together!] 🎵🎤🧪

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, beautyStandards, bowser, characterIllustration, ComputerTroubles, digital art, DiscordServer, entertainmentIndustry, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, girlhood, headphones, IlluminationStudios, Illustration, inventor, leonieyue, luigi, mario, Mario bros, microphone, movieThoughts, nerd, PennyCrygor, PerformanceAnxiety, pop singing, popsinger, princess peach, RATtestCovid, scientist, singing, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaEngagement, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TheSuperMarioBrosMovie, TheSuperMarioBrosMovieThoughts, TimeAnxiety, Timelapse, uterineFibroid, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, Windows11, Womanhood, ペニー, ペニー(メイドインワリオ)

In this blog post:
– text commentary Penny speedpaint
– Spoiler Mario Bros movie thoughts
– grieving for losing some of my working art files
– reflecting on the horror of girlhood, beauty standards & aging
– personal updates & health

Young Cricket the meat dumplings lover! [Warioware: Get It Together!]

By leonieyue Posted on 6 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with adultFriendship, aloneTime, alonewithcompany, anxiety, autism, autismFriendships, autismLife, autisticBurnout, AutisticFidgeting, BeingMisunderstood, burden, burnedBridges, comfortZone, commitmentfear, communication, confusion, connections, contentCreators, coworkerFriendshipsHard, deadpan, defensive, delayedProcessing, demiromantic, DemiromanticAce, disappointment, dumplings, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, emotionalLabour, EmotionallyAvoidant, EmotionallyDetach, emotionallyDraining, emotionallyImmature, emotionallyProcessing, exhausted, expectationsProjections, fanart, flowers, friendsComeAndGo, friendship, friendshipCompatibility, friendshipGuilt, friendships, gaslighting, ghosting, heartbreak, humanConnection, Illustration, incompetence, inconvenience, influencer, isolated, jawPain, jobsAutism, judgement, kungfu, leonieyue, LettingGo, LevelsOfFriendships, limerence, limerenceProjectionFantasy, loneliness, lonely, lowEnergy, MakingVideo, ManagingStress, manipulative, martial artist, martialartists, masking, meat buns, meat dumplings, monkey, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, NeurodiversityWorkplaceAccommmodations, nintendo, nonVerbal, notlookingautistic, Online:urker, onlineAcquaintances, OnlineContentConsistency, onlineFriendship, OnlineLurker, onlinePersona, OutgrowingFriends, passivereactions, PerformanceAnxiety, personalSpace, personalTraumas, personalupdate, personalZone, phonecalls, platonicFriends, publicpersona, rechargeTime, reflection, reflective, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, rejectionSensitivity, resentment, RomanticProjection, scapegoat, ScriptingAutism, SensoryIssues, sensoryOverload, socialAnxiety, socialGroups, socialising, sociallyAcceptable, socialMediaPoll, socialNeeds, SocialNorms, socialOutsider, socialreassurance, socialrecluse, socialValidation, speedpaintcommentary, StressEat, structureAndRoutine, stubbornness, subtlety, textcommentary, TextSpeedpaint, Timelapse, tired, toxicFriendships, TraumaProjection, unavailablepeople, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, writtencommunication, youngCricket, youtubevideo, ヤングクリケット

In this blog post:
– back to text commentary speedpaint
– commentary, youtube analytics & video making woes
– autism thoughts: masking, not looking autistic enough, scripting, “selective” mutism, burnouts, jobs/workplace accommodations, social faux pas, friendships & intimacy
– social media & personal update

Zelda and Link [Tears of the Kingdom] + voice commentary is back in my speedpaints huh

By leonieyue Posted on 23 May 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, Podcast, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with anxiety, AutismTrauma, backpedaling, communication, fanart, Illustration, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, LeonieArtRambles, leonieyue, Link, ManagingStress, no spoiler, onlineBoundaries, PerformanceAnxiety, personal, personalTraumas, personalupdate, physiololgicalstress, podcast, Princess Zelda, scapegoat, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, SocialMediaMetrics, speakingUp, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, TearsOfTheKingdom, toxicStress, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma, Zelda

In this blog post:
– voice commentary/ mini podcast speedpaint on backpedaling & first impressions of Tears of the Kingdom
– on blog rambles, toxic stress & personal update