Little timelapse! If you celebrate it, happy chocolate egg day!!

I don’t have any chocolate eggs but I had some chocolate several days ago?

Big baby chicken just having a moment :’)

Hey it’s another fanart to celebrate this new character I helped make with the HW team!

Originally this was concept art – another sketch iteration for the character I did during my off day. I was pushing the design further upon my initial passes as I wasn’t happy with the character’s proportions. I was testing how far to push it (and if I’m allowed/able to) :<

After things got approved, nitpicked upon and finalised, I repurposed my sketch into fanart/illustration as you see here!

I added bunny ears and accessories too because why not ;D

I can’t help but draw Big Baby Chicken :0

I had another sketch of another angle of Big Baby Chicken (you can see a glimpse of it in the timelapse) but this time I don’t want to spend more time making another piece like how I did 2 fanart pieces for Lovely Teddy Bear.

Note I’m only making fanart if I’m involved in the project’s character update *and* if I have the interest and time in drawing something cute for it! Or if I’m actually doing marketing art for work! Or learning things!

Reassuring myself: Trying to be more selective with fanart for work things in my personal time! It depends if I feel compelled to celebrate what I helped with :’) I have lots to juggle so I didn’t have time during work hours to do marketing art :0

Leonie rambles about…

Suddenly I have 250 followers on LinkedIn! Thank youuu! Though I only connect back with peeps if I feel comfortable and heard of and/or know you – that’s my personal boundary :’) Though there’s probably people who I’m not comfortable with anymore but have forgotten about in my connections :S

Well it’s much more than my bluesky and my barely alive Threads account :’)

Also a kind reader got me reflecting on podcasts/video making:

…I have attempted at voiced podcasts/videos times before at this channel (dedicated topics or based off from a blog post topic) and it became too much work, became less enjoyable, got stressful with workload and I burnt out from podcasts. I do keep it in mind in case I figure how to make it work for me – closest thing I’ve done are short subtitled timelapse videos (if not voiced) and have that technically as its own blog post haha

Ah trial and error, figuring out what interests me and being indecisive! :<

For me it’s also the “what would make someone click and find this valuable anyway” and constantly trying to find something to talk about that I can’t keep up as a “content machine” (oof) as I’m already juggling a lot as it is.
My blog feels more relaxed, personal, sustainable and I can still edit/type/proofread after I publish without worrying about recording haha

Ah well my blog is really where I get to ramble the most without having to cater/optimise for youtube :’) I just want to focus on learning and making art more than being an entertainer 😭

It is interesting that I get views on my shorts a bit more and then it’s my main timelapse videos so it really does mean I have to juggle between video and shorts hmm

from youtube conversation here

Yeah I don’t want to do podcasts anymore since I end up not having anything much to say and it ends up similar to scripted commentary where I also need an outline, research, planning, etc to help me. Also it’s me not believing I have consistently valuable things to share! And research and presentation in itself is hard work. And my past podcasts didn’t do amazingly anyway :’)

I’d rather ramble in words at my blog here :0

Also please consider doing this breast cancer risk assessment comprehensive tool (looked it up after Olivia Munn’s terrifying experience and her catching it at 42 years old) and also monthly self check ups (I don’t know who this actress is)

I don’t know about checking for cancer genes and seems very limited for people to do if they’re at super high risk?

Still I’m higher risk since my mum died from breast cancer – I’m terrified at the possibilities. The tool said that over the next 10 years my risk is 2.1% (normal is 1%) and over my lifetime it’s 26.5% (average/normal is 13.2%) while being thirties+ years old, the percentage is considered high risk? Mammograms are only a feasible thing from 40 years old onwards because that’s when they’re more helpful and effective. My doctor asked roughly the same questions but they didn’t tell me about the % part. It doesn’t help that the tool shows scary graphics of the % if you wanted to expand to see it and warns you to not look if it scares you :<

I do have a routine ultrasound scan later this year and I do try to do self check ups after my period but the fear and second guessing won’t go away :’) Lifelong worry about breast cancer risk I guess, especially with the random pain :’)

I think at the time, learning about this tool was one of the things that contributed to my stress and tension one night – I shouldn’t have done this scary tool before sleep :’)

Personal things…trying to manage stress & anxiety (why I was asking how to relax)

I ended up going to the dentist earlier in the week and I actually internally cracked a bit my expensive, strong mouth splint!! Noooo! I guess I really was clenching too hard when sleeping.

Got roped into doing a deep teeth clean and xrays as well so ouch my wallet… 🙁

Also turns out the fleeting period of tooth pain I had last week – one of my teeth is hopefully healing from an impending crack in the flexible/soft/straw like layer of the tooth. This my fault for not consistently wearing my mouth splint to not let it get worse 🙁

I did learn that the jaw muscles have the force of 80kg and is one of the strongest muscles of the body – you need a full set of teeth to balance out all that pressure or it’ll all crack if you’re too tense, grinding, lacking in teeth and/or not taking care of your teeth :0

Gosh I hate being so stressed out and tense in my body…seeking professional help for my stress was suggested? I think it’s more because I don’t really unwind sometimes and go straight to bed – I end up still tense and stressed out trying to sleep :’)

I have things I am worried about and things I’m juggling with (a lot of organising and cleaning work in the comings weeks oh no)! Also keeping bad intrusive thoughts minimal so I don’t spiral too much and let my insecurities and fears get the better of my headspace.

I’m trying to focus on the present and keeping busy at my slow pace :’)

I think I need to remember to empty my mind, take in the present and just breathe every now and then…easier said than done.

With twitter: already trying to ignore the guilt of not crossposting everything I do there halp I’m indecisive, conflicted & taking it too seriously again :’) May just post preview images without links or something…I don’t know anymore!!

Edit 2nd April: oof due to Easter(?) there’s only one reader of this blog post! Ouch! Who knows why :’) At least it’s not 0…

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