existentialDread – Leonie's Art Blog

Midorifuji 翠富士, Ichiyamamoto 一山本, Takayasu 高安 💪 Sumo wrestler studies!

By leonieyue Posted on 21 January 2025 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost Tagged with anxiety, anxietyFuture, anxious, ArtCareer, ArtCollaboration, bluesky, communicationIssues, CreativeFai, CreativeFailure, CreativePressure, DesireToProveSelfConstantlyExhausting, energy, EnergyConserving, energyLevels, exhaus, existentialDread, fanart, hatsubasho2025, hermit, hermitLeonie, hustlingExhausting, Ichiyamamoto, juggling, jugglingAllTheThings, keyboards, LeonieBlenderLearningProgress, leonieyue, love, lowEnergy, lowselfEsteem, meditation, Midorifuji, NintendoSwitch2, personal update, portrait, provingOneselfExhausting, relationships, selfdoubt, social media, socialBattery, socialEnergy, socialmedia, SocialMediaAddiction, SplitTentedKeyboards, sumo, sumoStudies, sumoTournaments, SumoWrestlerStudy, SumoWrestling, survivalArtistMode, Takayasu, timesink, WorkDowntime

❧ reflecting on creative failure
❧ personal update
Last week of the sumo hatsubasho is going right now yeahhh

🌙Sleeping on the pink crescent moon🌷 [Hermit Dragon Leonie part 8]

By leonieyue Posted on 14 January 2025 Posted in CharacterDesign, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, ThreeDart, VoxelIllustration Tagged with breathwork, EnergyConserving, energyConservingMode, EnergyDraining, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fallingAsleep, hermit, HermitDragonLeonie, HermitDragonLeonieVoxel, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hyperawareOfPeople, Illustration, LeonieBlob, leonieyue, magicaVoxel, meditation, nightowl, NotAbleToRelax, openOfficeEnvironments, overstimulated, poisoning, recovery, relax, sensoryOverload, sensorySensitivities, sleep, sleeping, SleepSchedule, sleepy, socialOutsider, solitaryRecoveryMode, stingyFrugalHermit, TaleOfPrincessKaguyaThoughts, TightBudgetHermit, voxel, VoxelAnimation, voxelArt, voxelIllustration

❧ on sleep, got slightly poisoned & internet finds
❧ the Tale of Princess Kaguya spoiler thoughts
❧ personal update & why I’m not logging in at bluesky much anymore & crossposting less at Linkedin from now on.

I will post status updates at my discord server instead + I’m active at my blog, youtube & cara! <3

🐲Dragon from Mario Wonder! (Year of the Dragon + Smaugust 2024)

By leonieyue Posted on 29 August 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with 4D, acquaintanceBoundaries, ActuallyAutistic, antiGenAI, anxiety, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, autisticallySocial, autisticMasking, autisticShutdown, behindInLife, BeingAnOutcast, beingPerceived, boundaries, comedy, ConfirmationBias, conflictAvoidance, contradictory, coward, creepy, deadpan, disinterest, doingOwnThing, dragon, everyoneHatesMe, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, explicitConsent, fanart, feelings, genAI, genAIdiscourse, GenAIimpactInternet, genAIscams, humiliation, hurt, hurtFeelings, Illustration, leonieyue, ManagingStress, neurodivergent, NoPuttingPeopleOnAPedestal, onlineBoundaries, outcast, overstimulated, overthinking, parasocial relationships, passiveAggressive, personalBoundaries, petty, prettyUglyPrivilege, scapegoat, socialAnxiety, socialConformity, SuperMarioBrosWonder, surprisePartiesNoThanks, visualPresentation, YearOfTheDragon, YearOfTheDragonFanart

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble & subtitled timelapse!
❧ Super Eyepatch Wolf’s video on Social Anxiety Horror
❧ personal update, Nintendo direct/indies & more!

🌌Samus [Metroid Dread fanart for the 38th anniversary] + sick with a head cold 🤧

By leonieyue Posted on 10 August 2024 Posted in CharacterDesign, Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, anxious, apathy, autism, AutismAdulthood, AutismEgoDeath, AutismEmployment, autismLife, autisticMasking, cloutChasing, confusion, DirtManSong, empty, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, FDSignifierYoutuber, feelingLost, genAI, genAIdiscourse, GenAIimpactInternet, genAIscams, gettingSick, headCold, healthUpdate, houseCleaning, Illustration, ImpactOfGenAIonEnvironment, insecurity, jobsAutism, judgemental, KendrickTracks, leonieyue, loneliness, lowEnergy, lowkeystress, managingPeople, ManagingStress, masking, menAndShoujo, MentalHealth, MetroidAnniversary, MetroidDread, MetroidSeries, neverGoodEnough, overthinking, PerformanceAnxiety, physiololgicalstress, process, programming, sadness, Samus, selfdoubt, selfLimitingBeliefs, SickWithCold, socialDynamics, socialHierarchy, songs, stress, SumoWrestling, TheZatmanYoutuber, Timelapse, toxicMasculinity, vibes, vulnerability, youtube

Also in this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ genAI discourse/shenanigans
❧ anxiety & apathy when creating things on the internet
❧ personal update & more

🥰 Kung fu Peach Part 2 [Princess Peach: Showtime fanart] Anxiety as an artist, social media, relevancy, GenAi, twitter, networking & what am I even doing

By leonieyue Posted on 9 April 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate Tagged with anxiety, AnxietyFromNewsPolitics, anxietyFuture, AprilFools, Art Anxiety, ArtCareer, ArtistDesperation, artistSocialThings, ArtistStruggle, burnout, careerDirection, CareerRelevancy, careerthoughts, changeIsConstant, changing career, contentCreators, creative, creativeFulfillment, doomSpiraling, emotionalStorytelling, existential, existentialDread, fanart, FoamstarsEthics, forcingIntoThingsYouDontFit, freetochangeourmind, generativeAI, GlazeAgainstAIScraping, HustleCulture, hustlingExhausting, Illustration, innerPurpose, joyAndMeaning, leonieyue, lifeSkills, lowkeystress, ManagingStress, megadroughtFear, plagiarism, PokemonMiku, princess peach, princesspeach, PrincessPeachShowtime, purpose, sensitive, SensitiveSnowflake, sketchbookThoughts, slow, slowingdown, social media, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediaIsASlotMachine, socialmediaIsRigged, SocialMediaMetrics, SocialMediaVoid, StreamingAnxiety, stress, StruggleAdapt, sustainableArtCareer, twitter, TwitterVentAgain, volatileIndustry, wariowareMoveIt, youtubers

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble!
❧ trying not to spiral with anxiety and fear as an artist – relevancy, GenAI, social media is frustrating, twitter & not knowing what I’m doing
❧ reflecting on artist networking
❧ personal feelings, update & more!