PerformanceAnxiety – Leonie's Art Blog

🌳🌼Bouncing together at Crossy Road Castle 🐈‍⬛🐔🦆🦄

By leonieyue Posted on 5 November 2024 Posted in Animation, Illustration, LeonieYue, progressupdate, ThreeDart, Video, VoxelIllustration Tagged with 3D animation, 3Dart, animation, animation practice, anxiety, ArtistsOutOfMyLeague, boundaries, comic, communication, communicationIssues, copingMechanism, crossy, crossy road, CrossyBlueTheCat, crossyChicken, CrossyMallard, crossyMarketingArt, CrossyRoadCastle, CrossyUnihorse, DemiromanticAce, depressed, disappointment, emotionalExpectations, entitlement, expectations, expectationsProjections, FeelingLikeAfraud, friendship, friendshipCompatibility, FriendshipEffort, friendshipExpectations, gratefulness, gratitude, HipsterWhaleMarketingArt, Illustration, imposterSyndrome, indecisive, irrelevant, juggling, jugglingAllTheThings, leonieyue, LettingGo, loneliness, magicaVoxel, marketingArt, MentalHealth, negativity, neverGoodEnough, newsletters, notgoodenoughFeelings, PerformanceAnxiety, personalBoundaries, PokemonTCGpocket, reflection, romance, romantic, RomanticProjection, romanticSpectrum, romcoms, sappy, self comparisons, self compassion, SelfConfidence, skin, social media, socialConformity, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediacharismapopularitycontest, socialMediaEngagement, socialmediaIsASlotMachine, SocialMediaMetrics, SocialMediaReach, SuperLeonieMode, toptierfamousartists, voxel, VoxelAnimation, voxelArt, voxelIllustration, wingingIt

In this blog post:
❧ about this little animation!
❧ on personal Crossy fanart next year
❧ Pokemon TCG Pocket
❧ not being good enough/impostor syndrome, mental health
❧ monthly newsletter, romance, personal update & more

👻Happy Halloween with Toadette and Boo [Mario Wonder]🍄

By leonieyue Posted on 30 October 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with asthma, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismBoundaries, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, boo, CaraApp, cleaning, communication, despair, drycoughing, emotionalDysregulation, emotionalEnergy, emotionalExpectations, emotionalIntimacy, expectations, expectationsProjections, expenses, fanart, fans, frugal, halloween, heartbeatirregularities, heroesAndFans, Illustration, inhaler, invisibleExpectations, juggling, jugglingAllTheThings, LeonieUpdate, lowkeystress, lowselfEsteem, ManagingStress, MasahiroSakurai, newsletters, openOfficeEnvironments, overfamiliar, overstimulated, parasocial relationships, PerformanceAnxiety, personalupdate, poor, quittingtwitter, restroomSensoryRecovery, sailorSenshi, social media, SocialMediaMetrics, stingyFrugalHermit, structureAndRoutine, SuperMarioBrosWonder, TextChatCommunication, Toadette, toxicworkplaces, twitter, unspokenExpectations, workaholic, writtencommunication, youtube

Also in this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ social media, newsletters, avoiding metrics & parasocial things
❧ personal update & more

🌌Samus [Metroid Dread fanart for the 38th anniversary] + sick with a head cold 🤧

By leonieyue Posted on 10 August 2024 Posted in CharacterDesign, Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, anxious, apathy, autism, AutismAdulthood, AutismEgoDeath, AutismEmployment, autismLife, autisticMasking, cloutChasing, confusion, DirtManSong, empty, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, FDSignifierYoutuber, feelingLost, genAI, genAIdiscourse, GenAIimpactInternet, genAIscams, gettingSick, headCold, healthUpdate, houseCleaning, Illustration, ImpactOfGenAIonEnvironment, insecurity, jobsAutism, judgemental, KendrickTracks, leonieyue, loneliness, lowEnergy, lowkeystress, managingPeople, ManagingStress, masking, menAndShoujo, MentalHealth, MetroidAnniversary, MetroidDread, MetroidSeries, neverGoodEnough, overthinking, PerformanceAnxiety, physiololgicalstress, process, programming, sadness, Samus, selfdoubt, selfLimitingBeliefs, SickWithCold, socialDynamics, socialHierarchy, songs, stress, SumoWrestling, TheZatmanYoutuber, Timelapse, toxicMasculinity, vibes, vulnerability, youtube

Also in this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ genAI discourse/shenanigans
❧ anxiety & apathy when creating things on the internet
❧ personal update & more

🧺🌳Banner art for the new official Crossy Road Central Discord (with art boss’s help)! 🍕🦄🐔🐈‍⬛🦆🐖🐎📖 Blender learning & anxiety with recording & streaming

By leonieyue Posted on 20 February 2024 Posted in Collaboration, Commission, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, ThreeDart, VoxelIllustration Tagged with 3Dart, AliceWalsh, anxiety, ArtCollaboration, BlenderThoughts, contentSlop, contentVoid, creativeFlow, crossy, crossy road, CrossyRoadCastle, discord, flow, hipsterWhale, HipsterWhaleMarketingArt, Illustration, intenseWorkRest, learningJourney, leonieyue, magicaVoxel, PerformanceAnxiety, protectArtCreativeProcess, RealTimeRecording, scoutrager, slowingdown, StreamingAnxiety, voxelArt, voxelIllustration

In this blog post:
❧ ramble a bit about the thoughts and process behind this!
❧ shall learn Blender another time
❧ the official Crossy Road Central discord
❧ reflecting on my anxiety with real time recordings/streaming

📜🐉Happy Lunar New Year of the Dragon 2024 with Rejuvenation God Yomigami / 蘇神 & baby seahorses!🔮🏮 [大神 / Ōkami Lunar New Year Project] Trusting self, ghosting, stress resilience & more

By leonieyue Posted on 6 February 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, anxiety, art process, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, BeingAnOutcast, BeingMisunderstood, BeingPresent, beingTrueToYourself, bloodTest, Bruxism, Celestial Brush God, Chinese New Year, DetachmentLettingGo, dragon, emotionalDetachment, EmotionallyDetach, emotionallyMutual, emotionalMaturity, faceMask, fanart, friendsComeAndGo, friendship, ghosting, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, lifedirection, loneliness, Lunar New Year, ManagingStress, okami, OkamiLunarNewYear, openOfficeEnvironments, PerformanceAnxiety, petty, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, rejectionSensitivity, resentment, resilience, seahorse, self compassion, selftrust, stress, subtitledSpeedpaint, textcommentary, TextSpeedpaint, thirdPlaces, tiger, Timelapse, transactionalRelationships, YearOfTheDragon, YearOfTheDragonFanart, YearOfTheTiger, Yomigami, youtubevideo, 大神, 蘇神

In this blog post:
❧ the art & subtitled timelapse is back!
❧ doing dragon fanart this year!
❧ on trusting yourself, ghosting and resilience with stress
❧ personal update, the year of the dragon & more!

Penny Crygor longs to become the best singer scientist in the whole universe! [Warioware: Get It Together!] 🎵🎤🧪

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, beautyStandards, bowser, characterIllustration, ComputerTroubles, digital art, DiscordServer, entertainmentIndustry, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, girlhood, headphones, IlluminationStudios, Illustration, inventor, leonieyue, luigi, mario, Mario bros, microphone, movieThoughts, nerd, PennyCrygor, PerformanceAnxiety, pop singing, popsinger, princess peach, RATtestCovid, scientist, singing, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaEngagement, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TheSuperMarioBrosMovie, TheSuperMarioBrosMovieThoughts, TimeAnxiety, Timelapse, uterineFibroid, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, Windows11, Womanhood, ペニー, ペニー(メイドインワリオ)

In this blog post:
– text commentary Penny speedpaint
– Spoiler Mario Bros movie thoughts
– grieving for losing some of my working art files
– reflecting on the horror of girlhood, beauty standards & aging
– personal updates & health

Young Cricket the meat dumplings lover! [Warioware: Get It Together!]

By leonieyue Posted on 6 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with adultFriendship, aloneTime, alonewithcompany, anxiety, autism, autismFriendships, autismLife, autisticBurnout, AutisticFidgeting, BeingMisunderstood, burden, burnedBridges, comfortZone, commitmentfear, communication, confusion, connections, contentCreators, coworkerFriendshipsHard, deadpan, defensive, delayedProcessing, demiromantic, DemiromanticAce, disappointment, dumplings, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, emotionalLabour, EmotionallyAvoidant, EmotionallyDetach, emotionallyDraining, emotionallyImmature, emotionallyProcessing, exhausted, expectationsProjections, fanart, flowers, friendsComeAndGo, friendship, friendshipCompatibility, friendshipGuilt, friendships, gaslighting, ghosting, heartbreak, humanConnection, Illustration, incompetence, inconvenience, influencer, isolated, jawPain, jobsAutism, judgement, kungfu, leonieyue, LettingGo, LevelsOfFriendships, limerence, limerenceProjectionFantasy, loneliness, lonely, lowEnergy, MakingVideo, ManagingStress, manipulative, martial artist, martialartists, masking, meat buns, meat dumplings, monkey, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, NeurodiversityWorkplaceAccommmodations, nintendo, nonVerbal, notlookingautistic, Online:urker, onlineAcquaintances, OnlineContentConsistency, onlineFriendship, OnlineLurker, onlinePersona, OutgrowingFriends, passivereactions, PerformanceAnxiety, personalSpace, personalTraumas, personalupdate, personalZone, phonecalls, platonicFriends, publicpersona, rechargeTime, reflection, reflective, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, rejectionSensitivity, resentment, RomanticProjection, scapegoat, ScriptingAutism, SensoryIssues, sensoryOverload, socialAnxiety, socialGroups, socialising, sociallyAcceptable, socialMediaPoll, socialNeeds, SocialNorms, socialOutsider, socialreassurance, socialrecluse, socialValidation, speedpaintcommentary, StressEat, structureAndRoutine, stubbornness, subtlety, textcommentary, TextSpeedpaint, Timelapse, tired, toxicFriendships, TraumaProjection, unavailablepeople, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, writtencommunication, youngCricket, youtubevideo, ヤングクリケット

In this blog post:
– back to text commentary speedpaint
– commentary, youtube analytics & video making woes
– autism thoughts: masking, not looking autistic enough, scripting, “selective” mutism, burnouts, jobs/workplace accommodations, social faux pas, friendships & intimacy
– social media & personal update

Zelda and Link [Tears of the Kingdom] + voice commentary is back in my speedpaints huh

By leonieyue Posted on 23 May 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, Podcast, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with anxiety, AutismTrauma, backpedaling, communication, fanart, Illustration, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, LeonieArtRambles, leonieyue, Link, ManagingStress, no spoiler, onlineBoundaries, PerformanceAnxiety, personal, personalTraumas, personalupdate, physiololgicalstress, podcast, Princess Zelda, scapegoat, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, SocialMediaMetrics, speakingUp, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, TearsOfTheKingdom, toxicStress, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma, Zelda

In this blog post:
– voice commentary/ mini podcast speedpaint on backpedaling & first impressions of Tears of the Kingdom
– on blog rambles, toxic stress & personal update

Making my PNGtuber avatars for my channel [Reflective Speedpaint]!

By leonieyue Posted on 25 April 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Timelapse, Video Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, affinityprograms, AIartDiscourse, artprocess, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, autisticShutdown, autisticThings, clipstudiopaint, creativeEnergy, crossy road, CrossyCastleSandcastleShores, crossyChicken, CrossyRoadCastle, CrossyRoadCharacter, CrossyRoadUpdate, digital art, digital illustration, disappointed, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, Fallingbehind, grump, Illustration, leonieyue, lowEnergy, MakingVideo, ManagingEnergy, nonVerbal, OBS, PerformanceAnxiety, photoshop, PNGtuber, procrastination, scripting, self portrait, selfDiagnosisAutism, selfdirectedDeadlines, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, streamingLeonie, textcommentary, youtubevideo, zoneOut

In this blog post:
– about this video
– Crossy shenanigans
– to stream or not?
– voice over videos or not?
– figuring Adobe alternatives
– AI generated art worries, sadness & the “game illustrators in China got laid off” article
– personal ramble

Art from Imagination & Memory / Lots of Portraits & health update!

By leonieyue Posted on 23 May 2022 Posted in LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches Tagged with alopeciaAreataHairLoss, anxiety, AnxiousAvoidantAttachmentStyle, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, Berserk, comfortZone, DrawingFromImagination, FinalFantasyOriginsStrangersOfParadise, GutsBerserk, healthUpdate, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hikikomori, imagination, ImaginativeDrawing, IronDeficiencyAnemia, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, PerformanceAnxiety, personalupdate, portraits, progress, progresspost, progressupdate, reflection, sketchbook, SketchFromImagination, sketchpost

Lots of terrible heads
And current health update :’)

StudyPost 21 / Leonie draws over five hundred boxes + rambles about tracking habits and progress

By leonieyue Posted on 28 February 2022 Posted in LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost Tagged with art studies, ArtDreams, ArtWod, CreateLearnInTheMoment, DrawABox, gestures, HabitTracker, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Krenz, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, MarshallVandruff, ModernDayJames, NotMakingGoals, PerformanceAnxiety, photoshop, progress, progresspost, progressupdate, reflection, RoutineTracker, sketchbook, sketchpost, socialmediaBoundaries, StevenZapata, studies, study, StudyingFromArtists

Reflecting on boxes, not worrying about art goals/dreams and tracking habits & progress.

StudyPost 23 / Winter outfit for the Drawfest2 prompt + 1 hour real time drawing video!

By leonieyue Posted on 18 December 2021 Posted in LeonieYue, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost, Video Tagged with 1hourchallenge, ArtChallenge, drawfest, drawfest2, DrawfestChallenge, DrawingChallenge, leonieyue, PerformanceAnxiety, photostudies, photoStudy, pixiv, prompt, PromptForTheDay, realtimeartvideo, sketchbook, sketchpost, studies, study, studyPost, winteroutfit

Why am I doing this when I’m from the Southern hemisphere!
Witness my struggle in real time :’)

Fanart / Wah [Ninomae Ina’nis from hololiveEN]

By leonieyue Posted on 7 June 2021 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, characterIllustration, emailUpdates, fanart, hololiveEN, housekeeping, Illustration, Ina, inART, influencer, iterating, learning, learningfrommistakes, learningJourney, leonieyue, MentalHealth, ninomaeInanis, PerformanceAnxiety, slo, slowingdown, slowLearner, socialCurrency, socialmedia, SocialMediaAddiction, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaArt, socialmediaBoundaries, socialMediaEngagement, SocialMediaMetrics, streamers, toxicProductivity, turtlePace, twitter, twitterAlgorithm, Vtuber, いなート, 一伊那尓栖

Leonie rambles about her limited knowledge about Ina & update about sketch prompts and tweeting art :’)

Sketch for the day 02 / Pointing [pixivSketch 28/05/2021] + ramble on managing social media (LeonieArtRambles podcast #6)

By leonieyue Posted on 29 May 2021 Posted in LeonieYue, Podcast, Reflection, Sketches, Studies Tagged with algorithms, ArtChallenge, ArtForTheDay, ArtistBrand, ArtistStandards, artPrompt, AttentionEconomy, careerDirection, careerthoughts, contentCreators, creative, creativeRut, creativity, creativityRut, drawing, DrawingChallenge, existential, FindingANiche, influencer, LeonieArtRambles, loneliness, lonelyArtist, MentalHealth, niche, perfectionism, PerformanceAnxiety, personal, Personality, personalupdate, photostudies, photoStudy, pixivSketch, pointing, portrait, prompt, reflection, rough, sketch, sketchbook, SketchForTheDay, sketchpost, socialmedia, SocialMediaAddiction, socialMediaEngagement, tired, twitterAlgorithm, uncertainty

It’s my second sketch prompt!
Also Leonie rambles about feelings, managing social media, not wanting to post some of her art to twitter, mental health, perfectionism, niches, uncertainty, constantly evolving boundaries and how few people seem to read her blog 🙁

There’s also a podcast version of this blog post!

Tag: PerformanceAnxiety