autistic – Leonie's Art Blog

Drawing for my birthday

By leonieyue Posted on 27 June 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with abandonment, anxiety, autisic, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, birthday, birthdayBreak, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fears, gratitude, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Illustration, insecurity, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, loneliness, lonelyArtist, overstimulated, overwhelm, reflection, reflective, rejection, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, scapegoat, self compassion, self portrait, selfAcceptance, selfAwareness, selfCare, selfdoubt, SuperLeonieMode, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate

Oh no

A mini reflective ramble & update

Princess Zelda [The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom]!!

By leonieyue Posted on 10 May 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, Sketches, Timelapse, Video Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, adultFriendship, antisocial, AttentionEconomy, attentionSpan, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, autisticallySocial, autisticBurnout, AutisticMeltdown, autisticShutdown, autisticThings, blackTea, blogging, ChronicallyOnline, compatibility, Cramps, DiscordServer, fanart, FireEmblem, FireEmblemTea, FireEmblemThreeHouses, friendships, hyperfixation, hyperfocus, Illustration, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, leonieyue, MakingVideo, managingWorkload, masking, nonVerbal, onlineBoundaries, onlineFriendship, onlineTime, openOfficeEnvironments, OutgrowingFriends, overwhelm, personalupdate, Princess Zelda, reflection, reflective, remoteWorking, SensitiveSnowflake, SensoryIssues, sensoryOverload, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, tea, TearsOfTheKingdom, teatime, TerminallyOnline, textcommentary, timeBlindness, timeManagement, WaitingModeMonotasker, Zelda

In this blog post:
– art process & text commentary video
– avoiding Tears of the Kingdom spoilers
– Fire Emblem black tea
– workload with making videos & blog posts
– how to fix “waiting mode”
– reflecting on my autistic shutdowns and meltdowns
– declining attention spans & managing time on the internet
– personal update

Making my PNGtuber avatars for my channel [Reflective Speedpaint]!

By leonieyue Posted on 25 April 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Timelapse, Video Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, affinityprograms, AIartDiscourse, artprocess, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, autisticShutdown, autisticThings, clipstudiopaint, creativeEnergy, crossy road, CrossyCastleSandcastleShores, crossyChicken, CrossyRoadCastle, CrossyRoadCharacter, CrossyRoadUpdate, digital art, digital illustration, disappointed, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, Fallingbehind, grump, Illustration, leonieyue, lowEnergy, MakingVideo, ManagingEnergy, nonVerbal, OBS, PerformanceAnxiety, photoshop, PNGtuber, procrastination, scripting, self portrait, selfDiagnosisAutism, selfdirectedDeadlines, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, streamingLeonie, textcommentary, youtubevideo, zoneOut

In this blog post:
– about this video
– Crossy shenanigans
– to stream or not?
– voice over videos or not?
– figuring Adobe alternatives
– AI generated art worries, sadness & the “game illustrators in China got laid off” article
– personal ramble

📺 WHY do Youtube?! Happy Lunar New Year of the Cat! [Rambly Speedpaint with Leonie featuring Kabegami from Ōkami] 🐈

By leonieyue Posted on 7 February 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with artistCommentaryYoutube, autistic, energyLevels, fanart, Illustration, issun, Kabegami, leonieyue, Lunar New Year, okami, OkamiLunarNewYear, patreon, postingSchedule, RamblyCommentaryWithLeonie, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, Tet, VietnameseNewYear, yearofCat, 大神

Speedpaint ramble on why I do Youtube videos
And little blog ramble about making this video

Happy Vietnamese New Year of the Cat 2023 featuring Catwalk God Kabegami / 壁神 🐈 & Issun!! [大神 / Ōkami LNY Project 🧧 ] + more!

By leonieyue Posted on 31 January 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection Tagged with autism, autismfocus, autismInertia, autismLife, autistic, autisticBurnout, blackholeRest, bodyAwareness, cat, Catwalk, Celestial Brush God, chineseheritage, chúc mừng năm mới, conflicting, conversation, drive, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyImmature, emotionallyInvested, emotionallyProcessing, emotionalMaturity, emotionalWalls, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, fanart, friendships, giantKoiFish, headspace, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hypocritical, Illustration, indecisive, IntenseProductivity, issun, Kabegami, kofi, leonieyue, lowEnergy, lowrisktaker, Lunar New Year, ManagingEnergy, masking, motivation, mutuallyInterested, okami, OkamiLunarNewYear, patreon, patronThanks, postingSchedule, productivity, productivityMethod, rejectionSensitivity, relationships, scapegoat, selfish, sensitive, sensitivity, SensoryFriendly, socialEnergy, sociallyAcceptable, sociallyExpected, socialrecluse, speedpaintcommentary, Tet, timeBlindness, Vietnam, VietnameseNewYear, yearofCat, zodiacAnimals, 壁神, 大神, 猫

In this blog post:
– thoughts on my Year of the Cat illustration & little bit on lunar new year
– numbered intimacy levels to gauge relationships and friendships
– managing my autism, inertia, uneven productivity, attention, drive, emotions and energy levels
– update/changes to my little Patreon
– personal update

Gameboy Link 💚💙❤️

By leonieyue Posted on 17 October 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Traditional Tagged with AfterAlterna, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, choice, ChosenFamily, comfortZone, complexFeelings, drawtober, drawtober2022, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyDraining, emotionallyProcessing, EmotionalSupport, emotionalWalls, empty, EmptySoul, EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnceMovie, existential, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, feltpens, felttipmarkers, gameboy, gameboy color, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, highlighters, homebodylife, Illustration, inktober, inktober2022, isolationlife, jaded, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, LeonieMugs, leonieyue, lifedirection, lifesuffering, Link, linktober, linktober2022, livinginthemoment, loneliness, ManagingEmotions, meaningoflife, movieThoughts, quiet, QuietObserver, rejectionSensitivity, sociallyAcceptable, solitary, solitude, Splatoon3doodle, textas, Traditional, traditional art, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma

Little blog ramble about this post, on Bayonetta 3, reflecting about “Everything Everywhere All at Once” & mugs ;D

SuperLeonieMode 359 / Got no time for this!

By leonieyue Posted on 8 August 2022 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode Tagged with alopeciaAreataHairLoss, art learning, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, beanie, comic, Doodles, gotnotimeforthis, Illustration, learningJourney, leonieyue, mood, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, self portrait, sketch, SketchForTheDay, SuperLeonieMode

Well.

SuperLeonieMode 357 / Energy depleted (taking my late June bday posting break)

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2022 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with ArtCourse, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, bday, birthday, birthdayBreak, boyBands, crushes, depressed, disappointed, disappointment, drained, emotionalEnergy, energy, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, existential, existentialEmptiness, fatigue, friendships, gloomy, gratitude, growingupinthe2000s, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hopelessness, hypochondriac, Illustration, irritable, jaded, juggling, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, lowEnergy, lowMood, ManagingEmotions, ManagingEnergy, ManagingStress, mixedFeelings, moodSwings, motherDaughterRelationships, numbness, patience, period, personalupdate, postingBreak, processing, sadness, self comparisons, self portrait, sitting, sittingwithfeelings, slow, slowingdown, stress, SuperLeonieMode, teenageLifeThoughts, tired, TurningRed, TurningRedMovieThoughts

Reflecting about needing this posting and birthday break.

SuperLeonieMode 351 / Avoiding eye contact and how I manage my autistic, inattentive brain + timelapse!

By leonieyue Posted on 7 March 2022 Posted in Comics, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, badShortTermMemory, comic, communication, deadpan, distractability, emotionalEnergy, EnergyDraining, eyeContact, focus, forgetfulness, Illustration, inattentiveADHD, intensity, leonieyue, lowEnergy, ManagingEmotions, ManagingEnergy, managingInterruptions, ManagingStress, minimisingDistractions, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, nonVerbal, productivityMethod, reflection, self portrait, slow, slowLearner, socialCues, socialising, sociallyAcceptable, sociallyExpected, sociallyOblivious, structureAndRoutine, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse, tunnelVision

I’m either deadpan staring or looking away ;D

Please I don’t want to stare into each other’s souls :’)

I did a bunch of online autism tests!

I go reflect how I currently manage my hyperfocus, rejection sensitive dysphoria, executive function struggles, attention & emotional dysregulation with my inattentive, autistic brain 🧠

SuperLeonieMode 342 / Not actually ready for art + timelapse! Reflecting on purpose, energy, context switching and focus

By leonieyue Posted on 7 February 2022 Posted in Comics, Illustration, LeonieYue, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode, Timelapse Tagged with ArtistHustle, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, burnout, cintiqWacom, comfortZone, comic, contextSwitching, creative, creativeEnergy, creativity, emotionalEnergy, energy, focus, Illustration, leonieyue, lowEnergy, ManagingEnergy, ManagingStress, neurodivergent, neurodivergentBrain, personalart, productivity, productivityMethod, reflection, reflective, self portrait, slow, slowLearner, SuperLeonieMode, tea, Timelapse, tired, tunnelVision, why art anymore

Creative brain started to float away
oh no my creative & energy levels!
Thoughts on context switching, struggle with focus & questioning art purpose.

SuperLeonieMode 340 / Me and my little Leonies! On expressing & interpreting mixed, subtle feelings.

By leonieyue Posted on 5 July 2021 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, SuperLeonieMode Tagged with ACNH, adultFriendship, adulthood, AnimalCrossing, AnimalCrossingNewHorizons, AnxiousAvoidantAttachmentStyle, art style, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, awkward, BeingMisunderstood, birthday, bittersweet, BodyLanguage, comic, complexFeelings, deadpan, disappointed, earningTrust, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, emotionalIntimancy, emotionalLabour, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyDraining, emotionalMaturity, EmotionalSupport, emotionalWalls, empathy, existential, facade, facialExpression, feelingCaredFor, feelings, frustration, GutFeeling, HappyFacade, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hotColdBehaviour, internet, interpretation, jaded, juggling, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, littleLeonies, making comics, ManagingEmotions, masking, MentalHealth, microexpressions, misunderstandings, mixedFeelings, not, notgoodenoughFeelings, personal, personalupdate, photo, reflection, reflective, rejectionSensitivity, self portrait, selfAwareness, selfCare, sensitive, sensitivity, sleepDeprived, SleepSchedule, sleepy, smallTalk, socialCues, socialHierarchy, sociallyAcceptable, sociallyExpected, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediabreaks, SocialMediaMetrics, socialmediaoverwhelm, SocialNorms, socialrecluse, SuperLeonieMode, tactless, ToxicPositivity, trust, trustIssues, twitter, validation, vulnerability, WorkingOvertime, あつまれどうぶつの森, あつ森, どうぶつの森

I ramble about my sappy mixed feelings and expressing & interpreting them in this blog post.

When I can’t really express how I’m feeling through words, through my awkward body language and my deadpan facial expression :’)

And reflecting on my birthday (which was over a week ago!) Please keep it to this blog; I don’t want to mention it on social media.

SuperLeonieMode 327 / On the observation deck [to celebrate CrossyRoadCastle’s Space Tower Update]!

By leonieyue Posted on 14 June 2021 Posted in Fanart, GiftArt, Illustration, LeonieYue, SuperLeonieMode Tagged with ActuallyAutistic, AshleighStarmer-Lee, autisic, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, crossy, crossyChicken, CrossyRoadCastle, fanart, gamedev, giftart, hipsterWhale, Illustration, LoveOnTheSpectrumShow, OrionKellyYT, pixivFANBOX, ShowThoughts, SpaceTower, spaceupdate, SuperLeonieMode, twitter, YoSamdySam

SuperLeonieMode 327 / On the observation deck [to celebrate CrossyRoadCastle’s Space Tower Update]!

And Leonie (as an autistic) rambles about avoiding the “Love On the Spectrum” show.

Patron only StudyPost 15 / DTIYS illustration timelapse, figure drawing & portraits + letting go of results & perfectionism

By leonieyue Posted on 26 April 2021 Posted in LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost Tagged with AkimboPodcast, animation, anxiety, art studies, autism, autistic, Awkwafina, BadFriends, beauty and the beast, blogging, clippaintstudio, clipstudiopaint, ColossalMovie, concentration, creative, creativeRut, creativity, creativityRut, doubts, empty, existential, failures, FeminineGaze, figure drawing, figuredrawing, FilmJoyYoutube, focus, friendships, hopelessness, housekeeping, HowlsMovingCastle, hyperfocus, InterestingFinds, KungFuPanda, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, LettingGo, lifesuffering, LoishArtist, MaleGaze, MarvelShangChiAndTheLegendOfTheTenRings, MollieBowmanYoutube, Nihilism, patreon, PatreonOnly, patron, perfectionist, progress, progresspost, progressupdate, reflection, reflective, results, RKFT1Youtube, SagesRainYoutube, self compassion, selfa, selfAcceptance, selfAwareness, selfCare, selfdoubt, selfImprovement, SethGodin, shortFilms, sketchbook, sketchpost, studies, study, success, suffering, TaikaWaititi, TheGreatAceAttorneyChronicles, witandFollyYoutube, yakuza, YharaZaydYoutube

Sketchpost 15 / DTIYS illustration timelapse, figure drawing and portraits + letting go of results, perfectionism & final interesting finds in this blog post [patron only]

Illustration / Otter riding with Scott [Bdaygiftart] + LeonieUpdate!

By leonieyue Posted on 29 March 2021 Posted in GiftArt, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with ace, aegoromantic, aegosexual, alloromantic, alloromanticAce, AnimalCrossing, AnimalCrossingNewHorizons, AnnaAkanaYoutube, asexual, asexuality, asian, asianImmigrant, asianWomenMurdered, autism, AutismTrauma, autistic, autisticallySocial, autisticBurnout, Bellusromantic, birthday, birthdayBurpdoodles, communication, demiromantic, DemiromanticAce, DidYouKnowGamingYoutube, disassociation, Exams, FakePsychics, giftart, Illustration, KarstenRunquistYoutube, KatamariDamacy, LeonieUpdate, ManagingStress, mklachuYoutube, NewsFeedEradicator, OrdinaryThingsYoutuber, OtamatoneCover, otters, plannedObsolescence, platonicRelationship, PTSD, RuminationsYoutube, ScottBeca, situationalMutism, socialmedia, socialmediaBoundaries, StevenHeYoutube, stress, SuperEyepatchWolf, ThomasFrankYoutube, trauma, twitter, Veritasium

Illustration / Otter riding with Scott [Bday giftart] + LeonieUpdate & notes on autism trauma in this blog post!!

Fanart / My entry to MageCandor’s DrawThisInYourStyle challenge + LeonieUpdate!

By leonieyue Posted on 15 March 2021 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Sketches Tagged with algorithms, anime, autism, autistic, autopilot, balance, boredom, BreathOfTheWild, connections, CryptoArtDiscourse, demon, demongirl, DidYouKnowGamingYoutube, DrawingChallenge, DrawThisInYourStyle, DrawThisInyourStyleChallenge, dtiys, dtiyschallenge, executiveFunctionChallenges, expectations, exposureTherapy, fanart, focus, gamedev, HealthyGamerGG, HirooOnodaWW2Holdout, Illustration, intentionality, InterestingFinds, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, magecandorArtist, magecandordemon, ManagingEnergy, ManagingStress, manga, mindfulness, OkisWeirdStoriesYoutube, perfectionism, perfectionist, power naps, process, processPost, redrawArt, selfDiscipline, sleep, sleepDeprived, socialmedia, socialmediaBoundaries, stress, succubus, TolerateBoredom

Fanart / My entry to MageCandor’s DrawThisInYourStyle challenge + LeonieUpdate, on the NFT/Crypto Art discourse, letting go of perfectionism, modes & hyperfocus, tolerating boredom in a world of algorithms and more in this ramble post!

Tag: autistic