existentialEmptiness – Leonie's Art Blog

🌙Sleeping on the pink crescent moon🌷 [Hermit Dragon Leonie part 8]

By leonieyue Posted on 14 January 2025 Posted in CharacterDesign, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, ThreeDart, VoxelIllustration Tagged with breathwork, EnergyConserving, energyConservingMode, EnergyDraining, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fallingAsleep, hermit, HermitDragonLeonie, HermitDragonLeonieVoxel, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, hyperawareOfPeople, Illustration, LeonieBlob, leonieyue, magicaVoxel, meditation, nightowl, NotAbleToRelax, openOfficeEnvironments, overstimulated, poisoning, recovery, relax, sensoryOverload, sensorySensitivities, sleep, sleeping, SleepSchedule, sleepy, socialOutsider, solitaryRecoveryMode, stingyFrugalHermit, TaleOfPrincessKaguyaThoughts, TightBudgetHermit, voxel, VoxelAnimation, voxelArt, voxelIllustration

❧ on sleep, got slightly poisoned & internet finds
❧ the Tale of Princess Kaguya spoiler thoughts
❧ personal update & why I’m not logging in at bluesky much anymore & crossposting less at Linkedin from now on.

I will post status updates at my discord server instead + I’m active at my blog, youtube & cara! <3

🐲Dragon from Mario Wonder! (Year of the Dragon + Smaugust 2024)

By leonieyue Posted on 29 August 2024 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with 4D, acquaintanceBoundaries, ActuallyAutistic, antiGenAI, anxiety, autism, AutismAdulthood, autistic, autisticallySocial, autisticMasking, autisticShutdown, behindInLife, BeingAnOutcast, beingPerceived, boundaries, comedy, ConfirmationBias, conflictAvoidance, contradictory, coward, creepy, deadpan, disinterest, doingOwnThing, dragon, everyoneHatesMe, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, explicitConsent, fanart, feelings, genAI, genAIdiscourse, GenAIimpactInternet, genAIscams, humiliation, hurt, hurtFeelings, Illustration, leonieyue, ManagingStress, neurodivergent, NoPuttingPeopleOnAPedestal, onlineBoundaries, outcast, overstimulated, overthinking, parasocial relationships, passiveAggressive, personalBoundaries, petty, prettyUglyPrivilege, scapegoat, socialAnxiety, socialConformity, SuperMarioBrosWonder, surprisePartiesNoThanks, visualPresentation, YearOfTheDragon, YearOfTheDragonFanart

In this blog post:
❧ the art ramble & subtitled timelapse!
❧ Super Eyepatch Wolf’s video on Social Anxiety Horror
❧ personal update, Nintendo direct/indies & more!

🌌Samus [Metroid Dread fanart for the 38th anniversary] + sick with a head cold 🤧

By leonieyue Posted on 10 August 2024 Posted in CharacterDesign, Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, anxious, apathy, autism, AutismAdulthood, AutismEgoDeath, AutismEmployment, autismLife, autisticMasking, cloutChasing, confusion, DirtManSong, empty, EnergyDraining, energyLevels, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, FDSignifierYoutuber, feelingLost, genAI, genAIdiscourse, GenAIimpactInternet, genAIscams, gettingSick, headCold, healthUpdate, houseCleaning, Illustration, ImpactOfGenAIonEnvironment, insecurity, jobsAutism, judgemental, KendrickTracks, leonieyue, loneliness, lowEnergy, lowkeystress, managingPeople, ManagingStress, masking, menAndShoujo, MentalHealth, MetroidAnniversary, MetroidDread, MetroidSeries, neverGoodEnough, overthinking, PerformanceAnxiety, physiololgicalstress, process, programming, sadness, Samus, selfdoubt, selfLimitingBeliefs, SickWithCold, socialDynamics, socialHierarchy, songs, stress, SumoWrestling, TheZatmanYoutuber, Timelapse, toxicMasculinity, vibes, vulnerability, youtube

Also in this blog post:
❧ art process & subtitled timelapse!
❧ genAI discourse/shenanigans
❧ anxiety & apathy when creating things on the internet
❧ personal update & more

Pikmin 4 / Me, my pikmin and my space dog Oatchi!

By leonieyue Posted on 18 July 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Timelapse, Video Tagged with animatedshort, ArtistHustle, ArtistStruggle, asexual, asexuality, AutismTrauma, bluepikmin, bluesky, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, finalfantasy16, frayromantic, glowpikmin, healthUpdate, HustleCulture, hyperfocus, icepikmin, Illustration, indiegamedev, instagram, leonieyue, neurodivergent, NintendoSwitch, Oatchi, overthinking, personalTraumas, personalupdate, pikmin, pikmin4, pinkpikmin, platonicRelationship, purplepikmin, redpikmin, reflection, reflective, rockpikmin, romance, romantic, romanticSpectrum, shortFilms, shoujoAnime, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialmediaBoundaries, socialmediabreaks, socialMediaEngagement, SocialMediaMetrics, socialmediaoverwhelm, SocialMediaReach, speedpaint, speedpaintcommentary, TakingBreaks, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TextSpeedpaint, Threads, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma, trauma, TraumaProjection, traumas, twitter, videoreflectivenotes, whitepikmin, yellowpikmin, youtube, オッチン, ピクミン 4

In this blog post:
– speedpaint text commentary for this fanart
– Twitter & social media woes
– not sure about my Thread account
– reflecting on some youtube videos, romance & asexuality, hustle culture, personal update & taking a break

Drawing for my birthday

By leonieyue Posted on 27 June 2023 Posted in Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection Tagged with abandonment, anxiety, autisic, autism, autismfocus, autismLife, autistic, birthday, birthdayBreak, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, existing, fears, gratitude, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, Illustration, insecurity, LeonieBirthday, leonieyue, loneliness, lonelyArtist, overstimulated, overwhelm, reflection, reflective, rejection, rejectionSensitiveDysphoria, scapegoat, self compassion, self portrait, selfAcceptance, selfAwareness, selfCare, selfdoubt, SuperLeonieMode, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate

Oh no

A mini reflective ramble & update

Penny Crygor longs to become the best singer scientist in the whole universe! [Warioware: Get It Together!] 🎵🎤🧪

By leonieyue Posted on 20 June 2023 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Timelapse Tagged with anxiety, Art Anxiety, beautyStandards, bowser, characterIllustration, ComputerTroubles, digital art, DiscordServer, entertainmentIndustry, existential, existentialEmptiness, fanart, girlhood, headphones, IlluminationStudios, Illustration, inventor, leonieyue, luigi, mario, Mario bros, microphone, movieThoughts, nerd, PennyCrygor, PerformanceAnxiety, pop singing, popsinger, princess peach, RATtestCovid, scientist, singing, sociallyOblivious, socialmedia, socialmediaAndArtists, socialMediaEngagement, TearsOfTheKingdomUpdate, TheSuperMarioBrosMovie, TheSuperMarioBrosMovieThoughts, TimeAnxiety, Timelapse, uterineFibroid, WarioWare, WarioWareGetItTogether, Windows11, Womanhood, ペニー, ペニー(メイドインワリオ)

In this blog post:
– text commentary Penny speedpaint
– Spoiler Mario Bros movie thoughts
– grieving for losing some of my working art files
– reflecting on the horror of girlhood, beauty standards & aging
– personal updates & health

Laura Parton [D2 Dreamcast game]

By leonieyue Posted on 19 December 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Sketches, Timelapse Tagged with AceAttorney, anxiety, character illustration, characterIllustration, D2dreamcastGame, digital art, dreamcast, existential, existentialDread, existentialEmptiness, fanart, gloomy, HayaoMiyazaki, heartbeatirregularities, Illustration, LauraParton, leonieyue, NintendoSwitch, nintendoswitch2022, PhoenixWrightAceAttorneySpiritOfJustice, QualityCultureYoutube, snow, Splatoon3, Studio Ghibli, survivalhorrorgame, SwitchGames, switchgames2022, tense, tension, Timelapse

A little ramble about the game, personal update and fanart speedpaint at my blog ;D

Gameboy Link 💚💙❤️

By leonieyue Posted on 17 October 2022 Posted in Fanart, Illustration, LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, Reflection, Traditional Tagged with AfterAlterna, autism, AutismAdulthood, autismLife, autistic, choice, ChosenFamily, comfortZone, complexFeelings, drawtober, drawtober2022, emotionalDistance, emotionalEnergy, emotionalIntimacy, EmotionallyAvoidant, emotionallyDraining, emotionallyProcessing, EmotionalSupport, emotionalWalls, empty, EmptySoul, EverythingEverywhereAllAtOnceMovie, existential, existentialEmptiness, existentialism, fanart, feltpens, felttipmarkers, gameboy, gameboy color, hermitLeonie, hermitLife, highlighters, homebodylife, Illustration, inktober, inktober2022, isolationlife, jaded, Legend of Zelda, legendofzelda, LeonieMugs, leonieyue, lifedirection, lifesuffering, Link, linktober, linktober2022, livinginthemoment, loneliness, ManagingEmotions, meaningoflife, movieThoughts, quiet, QuietObserver, rejectionSensitivity, sociallyAcceptable, solitary, solitude, Splatoon3doodle, textas, Traditional, traditional art, TransGenerationalFamilyTrauma

Little blog ramble about this post, on Bayonetta 3, reflecting about “Everything Everywhere All at Once” & mugs ;D

Study & sketch post / Portraits from imagination + Figure studies ❤️💙💛💜

By leonieyue Posted on 19 September 2022 Posted in LeonieYue, PersonalUpdate, progressupdate, Reflection, Sketches, Studies, StudyPost Tagged with AIartDiscourse, art studies, ArtCareer, careerthoughts, comfortZone, DrawingFromImagination, EadweardMuybridgeFrames, EmptySoul, existentialEmptiness, fanart, figure drawing, figuredrawing, gestures, imagination, ImaginativeDrawing, LeonieUpdate, leonieyue, mindlessdoodles, photoStudy, progress, progresspost, progressupdate, reflection, reflective, Shiver, sketchbook, SketchFromImagination, sketchpost, slowStudy, Splatoon3, Splatoon3doodle, studies, study, studyPost, sustainableArtCareer

Portraits from imagination + Eadweard Muybridge frame studies!
Reflecting on art brain dumps, AI art discourse & I continue to juggle life and trying to relax better :’)