In this little LeonieUpdate:

• A bit of illustration process!
• LeonieUpdate and some interesting finds!

Final sketch!

Lineart!

Close up!

Midnight the Witch!

Created her while I was studying and playing around with witch-esque references (:

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Little Monday LeonieUpdate time!

Apologies that I’m not doing patron sketchbook posts until next year as I’m playing things by ear: making an art buffer, learning, life, housework, work, games and personal art. I will get back to it on a weekly to fortnightly basis when I feel ready to.

I’m also pausing the LeonieArtRambles podcast indefinitely because I think I should focus on art learning and life. As experienced before, it feels like I’m spreading myself too thin, making podcasts is time consuming, it’s just a little side project with not much of an audience and I’ve lost steam at the moment. I do appreciate the small handful of listeners though! I just don’t want it to make it a regular thing but more of an occasional, random kind. My default will be sticking with smaller blog posts when I want to learn and discuss about art topics. I’ll continue it when it feels right to me and I have a big topic to chew upon again (:

Autism rambles

• Autism: Seeking Social Validation: What are the rules?
  • I think I’ve trained myself since I was a kid to conform, mask myself, look for cues and/or just be quiet when it comes to groups with authority – sheep theory then? Group think? Survival?
  • the unspoken social rules usually confuse me too so I keep my confusion to myself unless I feel safe and emotionally supported to ask about the obvious without annoying others
  • I wouldn’t really think of what other people are thinking if I don’t care about them ;P
  • I don’t really stick with the collective/majority for long if it doesn’t gel with me
  • it’s best to have a good mix of caring what people think (so there’s social understanding and awareness) and not caring too much so that you don’t sacrifice your own values
• a good twitter thread on autism issues!
• Pixar Sparkshorts: Float (2019) (spoiler wikipedia article) and spoiler ramble:
  • it’s so wholesome; recommended! It’s the director’s personal story about a Filipino American family where it reflects his experiences, internal conflict and finally acceptance of having an autistic son, represented by the power of floating (:
  • what’s super unrealistic is how other parents and kids are so quiet and passive (since it’s not part of the storytelling)
  • gosh that backpack of rocks reminded me of my heavy backpack of textbooks and stuff :’) It probably made me permanently short in height growing up ;P
  • the “why can’t you be normal?!” hurts in a bittersweet way because there is no such thing as “normal” and regardless of how much you pretend or mask yourself – there’s always people who will reject you, ghost you, dismiss you, overlook you, put you down, disappoint you, avoid you, give you lots of white lies and/or care little about you
    • for those people I would minimise their part in my life or cut them out of my life if possible
  • it’s an active learning journey of accepting each other as they are :’)
  • And I wish I could float ;P

Interesting finds

• binged on a lot of OrdinaryThings videos, Internet Historian and some ManyKudos videos
• Bravely Default review by Clemps
• “I was told women don’t like sensitive men…” Toxic Masculinity Interview (binging on HealthyGamerGG videos)
• watched an animated short Wild Love (2019) and it was gruesome
• The Story of Tetris (Gaming Historian)
  • whoa it’s been a mess of lots of people trying to get a hold of the tetris money pie :0
• wholesome Korean teenager meets American for the first time

Thanks so much for reading!

My Monday’s going to be busy with some impromptu one day worth of work and it’s the last day of November too! :0

I hope your Monday goes well and may you have a good, wholesome first week of December ahead! (:

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