Wakamotoharu 若元春 and Nabatame 生田目💪Sumo wrestler studies!
Wakamotoharu portrait studies!
I haven’t been fully watching the whole thing but just snippets and updates with the tournament/basho happening right now.
Nabatame 生田目
He’s been doing so well so far in the first early days of this basho!!
Decided to post sumo studies up since it’s currently Day 3 of 15 of this month’s sumo tournament! So I’ll be posting some more studies I did last year ;P
Leonie rambles about…
I wrote these up last year and I didn’t want to keep writing thoughts on videos – it’s time consuming. I forgot to include what I did write so this is some of past Leonie’s thoughts here:
- My biggest challenge. Paid employment as an autistic adult. (Anna Gabrielle)
- definitely a struggle that has many factors
- lots of food for thought and that most jobs and tasks involves masking too much and politics
- I am most oblivious to workplace politics and interpersonal shenanigans so I’d never go up in leadership roles. I don’t want to be overloaded with stress ;P
- how sensory stimulus is accumulative (how full is your cup as she says) and also during your periods you’re more sensitive and less capacity for life stuff in your headspace
- gosh I need to better gauge this because my cramps make me miserable, suffer, short fused and grumpy during the worst of it
- I agree that two days being on alert in situations/environments that are out of my control is plenty enough for a week
- then I spend the next day to recover
- I don’t have much capacity outside of that
- if I do, it has to be worth putting my recovery time at risk and possibly having a drained/horrible/low energy week if don’t make sure I have enough recovery/decompressing time 🙁
- sleep is important too (I’m trying to get better at)
- alone time is so important to recover and protect the nervous system indeed
- lots of trial and error on a weekly basis indeed with my capacity to deal with life, sensory sensitivity and what I’m able to handle
- I’m tired of fighting for my needs but only I have to do it, to figure it out and speak up for myself with my social and sensory limitations as I go along :’)
- My Experiences with Autistic Burnout | The Burnout I Never Want to Repeat.
- yeah my tolerance for burnout is low and trying to manage things so it doesn’t get to a horrible stage
- boundaries are so important
Personal update
- Been feeling unwell last week and some meals upset my digestive system so trying to be careful here :’)
- slowly trying to connect, get to know and chat with a few peeps 1 to 1 without expectations and it’s been nice :’D
- adapting to how others work as people have their own ways of communication
- some just don’t answer despite following up – and that’s a response in itself
- and/or it becomes guesswork/unreliability/insecurity/emotional distancing/barrier from there
- others need more time
- others just don’t vibe
- some just forget
- and me trying to detach from too much overthinking ;P
- and need to manage my expectations/priorities as I go along
- striving to just enjoy the moment, appreciate the people who matter and focus on the present :0
- making efforts to find my way (within my social and sensory limitations) to feel less isolated/lonely and a bit more connected with a few peeps :’)
- some just don’t answer despite following up – and that’s a response in itself
- wary and careful as people are quite sick the past few weeks
- it’s a mix of cold/warmer weather and I’m in a confused state with what to wear
- still haven’t been drawing daily as I’m just focused on going through some blender tutorials first this month or so
- still existential on what my end goal is with art
- I just want to draw, learn, grow, design/create/express what I enjoy
- I don’t want to get too specific as I do like variety and to minimise burning out doing one thing
- also with my oc/avatar the hermit dragon I keep changing her hair because I can and will keep nitpicking along the way ;P
- I learned I can’t do study dailies as my default as there’s some days where I mentally can’t switch modes and I need to decompress mentally and fighting through low energy at the end of the day :’)
- when I do force myself, I start falling asleep and struggle to focus…
- I need to allow myself to only do it when I’m not at risk of falling unconscious from mental exhaustion…I can’t do all-nighters often either
- been watching Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 and I’m not sure how I feel about the story yet as I am in Act 3
- I don’t resonate with it but it’s definitely compelling
- only watched first route of One Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy…and I plan to watch 100 endings and the many entirely different routes eventually goodness
- I hope the devs/creators of the Danganropa games and the Nonary games make a profit via their collaborating studio; this is an intense and long saga
- I don’t know how long this will take haha
- my youtube isn’t really working for me yet it’s another form of documenting my art journey and it has more views than my blog here oof
- why do I bother writing to the void…well it really is for me I guess…keeping my despair at bay here
- self reminder that I should write less if I really don’t have anything to say…I write my feelings and as much as it’s an outlet, sometimes it’s just not worth sharing out here ;P
- plus I’m not big enough to have a valued patron only blog
- might not restrict myself to weekly blog updates only and just see how I go instead
I’m going to try doing monthly blog updates from here because only 2 kind peeps regularly read my little blog (thank you!!) Maybe that will make blog posts more worth reading if I’m recapping the art I’ve posted at my discord, bluesky and cara in the past month instead. And ramble less??
In this case, the next blog post would be in June, around the last Tuesday of every month. Let’s see how doing monthly blog updates again go for me. I will strive to reign myself in with how much I ramble…
Well I got things to do right after posting this so take care and not push yourself too hard!! :’)
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