Little youtube animation! Yeah I should have written Crossy Road Castle there but ah well

Designs much thanks to the hard work of catshriek (Crossy Road Castle’s art lead at the time)! Again lots of lobby, environment and character designs are much credit to both the hard work of catshriek and Kevyn Stott! I’m not taking credit for the original in-game designs :’D Well except for a lot of the background decorations ;P

I did this voxel & animation practice last year during Nov 2023 and I can finally share it now!

Done during my Magicavoxel learning journey where I made things from scratch :’D

Yeah I’m slowly showing the voxel art I was doing when practicing…!

Had to learn a bunch about colour and making the gif animation play right in Davinci Resolve and ClipStudioPaint!! It was frustrating and time consuming trying to get my head around it. I even dabbled back in Photoshop but then I backed off because I don’t want to juggle too many programs.

Blue, Chicken, Mallard, Unihorse under the rainbow

I think this piece was already used in a newsletter!

Leonie rambles about…Bluesky self boundaries

I dread looking at my overwhelming feed now like with twitter…how to manage? Shall focus on Mutuals & Followers feeds 1st (I appreciate you 💜) & with other peeps I follow is when I have the headspace for it? Need to slow down & just comment on things I enjoy instead of reposting too much :S

— Leonie Yue (@leonieyue.bsky.social) October 19, 2024 at 11:54 AM

See full thread for more rambling and overthinking at the time. I don’t even think this plan is sustainable as I struggle to find ways to minimise stress with too many feeds. I won’t check followers feed too much now as it seems the same 3-6 people posts took over and I’m not interested in these posts; that makes sense haha It’s a bit sad as it was small and manageable before but can’t be helped.

Someone advised/reminded me to focus on myself and what I want to do – which was/is appreciated! I accept I can’t keep up to date with everything.

Well at the moment: I want to enjoy using Bluesky, do some ninja likes when I’m scrolling, comment on things I want and focus on peeps who interact with me …but not let it get too addictive and consume my life. So when I feel up to it.

I started muting a few mutuals/people who don’t post what I’m interested in, who don’t really support/interact with me online anyway or I don’t feel great seeing their posts :’) I need to be in a better headspace and time to process things perhaps.

Mutuals doesn’t necessarily mean they’re meaningful connections…sometimes they’re just a very loose connection who may never see your posts (or muted you), let alone engage with you and your work after all. Most peeps I don’t mind not having interactions – I wasn’t hoping/expecting it and/or don’t know them.

For those I was hoping for mutual interactions or for those who I want to move on from due to past negative experiences with them (thanks intrusive thoughts!!) – I’m a petty, silly, sensitive, snowflake butt and I don’t want to be miserable looking at my feed – I want to move my attention, time & silly expectations elsewhere ;P

I want to focus my time on people who do respond, support, are interested & connect with me and/or they post things that truly inspire & interest me enough to keep me checking consistently (whether I’m following them or they’re following me or it’s both ways).

Going to be somewhat picky with what I want to see in my feeds, please understand ;P

I will curate who I follow especially if someone is posting too much I don’t want to see. And in turn I try my best to not post/spam followers too much – now that I’m done trying to organise my art posts with tags.

I am figuring this out along the way because I don’t want to become too passive/stagnant like I was with Twitter/Instagram but I don’t want to dread looking at my feed :’) It has been nice seeing familiar and new artist/gamedev names even though I don’t really know them well as people. Yes I’m managing the parasocial side, overthinking and expectations as I am a hermit after all.

I have settled with just appreciating & liking posts and don’t expect people to notice my existence, let alone interact or even follow me. I am too wary/tired/scared of following and second guessing about past mutuals/people at this point so I just appreciate posts and move on and not stress about reconnecting ;P

I think most won’t see or acknowledge my likes anyway and I’m fine with that. I’m so done feeling stressed out, anxious or overthinking the mind games with other people…I want to keep things simple. If I want to follow someone I will, if I don’t for reasons or if I’m not sure then I won’t. Let things happen slowly and get to know people (at least their online personas).

Enjoy using bluesky in moderation and just do what feels right to me at the time. Going to minimise posting and discussing about social media after this post goes out (posts like these too!!)…I need to stop dwelling on it and move onto other things.

I’m glad things are slowly calming down though! It’s rare but nice when randomly you get followed by cool people :D! I’m starting to get game accounts following me though when I’m not the target audience :S

Now if only I was a goof…then I’d be entertaining. But then I don’t have the energy to keep that up.

Internet finds

• LEGO Wants These Bricks Destroyed (SpitBrix)
  • didn’t know marbled bricks are a thing
• The Problem with Greek Myth Retellings (Kate Alexandra)
• When a DEEP Character Pretends to be SHALLOW… (Hobie Brown) (Schnee)
• How to dominate the Olympics when you’re not a ‘sporty nation’ (aini)
• oliSUNvia videos:
  • creating homo sacer: life that can be “killed” but never “murdered”
  • when is offense justified?: analyzing norms of respect & offensive content
  • it’s okay to love bad people.
    • discussion on love
  • makeup is oppressive…but also empowering? | philosophy of beauty & self-expression
    • as said in past posts, I don’t like makeup on my face – the feeling is icky and feels like paint on my face
    • and they’re on sensitive parts of my eyes and nose and mouth
    • also I’m lazy
    • also I can save money not buying makeup
    • also people can express and present themselves how they want
      • this is just me! If you use it, it’s wonderful!
    • also I’m just accepting that’s how I look and I’m plain ;P
    • I did try make up but they didn’t get used much and had to be thrown out
    • also I’m used to how I look; I don’t want to look like something else
    • I felt weirded out when I was caked by a makeup artist one time and looked at the mirror…who is that D:
  • what can you ACTUALLY learn from video essays??
• She changed how I see relationships (Dillon Gerrity)
  • wholesomely accepting people as they are, meet and support each other’s needs and grow together
• Why We Can’t Fix the Makeover Movie (verilyb!tchie)
  • yeah I’m trying to forget this conditioning that I have to transform and change who I am in order to be liked, appreciated and valued
  • and glasses are not welcomed in entertainment for some reason with makeovers
  • how people want to present themselves versus conforming to what’s “respectable” and so called “true self”
  • something to tackle when you have to prepare to go out and do social things :’)
  • awareness on how we judge people upon impressions
• Is Doctor Who Transgender Now? | A Video Essay (verilybtchie)
• Far Longer Than Forever | A Love Letter to The Swan Princess (Better with Bob?)
  • beyond the looks and wealth
  • I love this movie :’) <3
• Someone’s writeup on some PAXAus 2024 indie picks
• You don’t need this to make money as an artist (pikat)
  • true
  • though you can’t depend on studio jobs to be 100% stable given how volitile the animation, entertainment, publishing and game industries are
  • you do need social media if you’re freelancing though or making your own IP/projections or merch
• Slowly watching Metaphor: ReFantazio :0!!
  • The art is so good!
  • The battle music reminds me of Fire Emblem: Three Houses though

Personal update

Hm I’m not feeling great…it’s almost time for painful cramps again…food issues too…

And I need to clean my eyes better…and eczema giving me grief as weather changes. And some other things & expenses I dread. Stressful, frustrating little things that add up…!! Ah life…

I am torn between making art for fun, making art to learn and creating original things – I need to do the latter two as much as I don’t have substantial mileage in storytelling. I really don’t want to make a long running story with many story threads and arcs. I need to establish something that keeps me compelled to keep adding to it…easier said than done of course.

How do I keep making & learning art I enjoy and still be silly? I feel like I can’t combine everything and I’m not sure how I can juggle it. Some say comics is the way…? Do I keep it somewhere medium or low effort? There’s also the difference between character design, writing skills and art quality…what do I want to focus on the most?

At the moment I do fanart since that’s what keeps me having fun at art when off work :’) I need to mix it up or rotate focuses before I burn out on the one thing! Been through stages where I hate my art and I just push through or I redo it again :0

I do think I’m the stubborn one for posting my longer form blog posts like this when most monetise theirs behind a paywall. Or behind a newsletter. And I still crosspost about my blog posts on microblogging platforms – this is probably why I won’t have a large audience haha. Well I have to…I don’t have enough readers for me to not have to crosspost to reach people. Oof.

Well I am roughly aiming for 1-4 blog posts a month but I do need to allow myself to post silly little doodles too. I need to see if I can even make that work hm

Anyhoo I’m glad it’s not as intense with work today! Juggling continues! Wahhh :’D

Life can be a frustrating, stressful struggle as it is; let’s do our best to see the silly in life! (inspired by Grace Bruxner)

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