Hey I helped make these characters + anims

Yes I added that Mallard racquet because I want to and the team supported it haha ;P

I made Tennis Chicken last year and she’s finally a character! 😀

Much thanks and credit to the Crossy team for making these characters happen!

I ended up doing more Crossy fanart anyway based on what I worked and helped with haha

Leonie rambles about…

I’m going to do a bunch of quotes from myself since my fatigue headache is getting to me…

Just venting and reflecting:
I know no one has the answers because everyone is choosing what they’ll tolerate and can juggle and manage…

I deleted Facebook, twitter and not sure what to do with my inactive, dead and private Instagram and whether I should revive it at all even if it’s just image art posts…fomo is getting to me sometimes as many artists and companies are still using that soul consuming platform….

And when I actually login to reconsider Instagram I feel like an insecure ghost there again as it’s generally difficult to reach people. It doesn’t help that genai stuff and scraping is there and at all the mainstream places, bluesky, YouTube, twitch, etc as there is nowhere safe on the internet…

YouTube is not what I want to do regularly, not sure about scary streaming
I enjoy blogging instead but my blog posts don’t really reach much people, I hang at my tiny art discord server and Cara is wonderful thanks to being around other artists!

So do I still bother with Instagram to reach more peeps since scraping can’t truly be avoided anyway at the expense of my mental health??

Warghhhhhh frustrating as usual as I keep flip flopping :’D
– from my Cara post today

My fear of missing out aside, I don’t really want to go back as what waits for me there is sadness, insecurity, anxiety, discouragement, envy, frustration, isolation, loneliness, resentment and unhelpful comparisons. Even when I was active several years ago it was hard to keep it up and I am not a “content machine”.

I mean it’s not too different from other platforms like bluesky, cara and youtube in terms of struggling to reach people – that is why I keep reconsidering instagram because “might as well”.

If I ever do post on instagram again they will be all glazed, I’m not doing much reels, treat it like the other platforms I post to and I won’t log on until I need to post something…not different from what I used to do oof

I got kicked in the foot today :'(

When walking in a crowded area today, I grazed shoulders with a black and white cap, white hoodie, white tall guy but immediately after, he kicked the top of my mid-air foot really hard (shoe was mesh top so no protection) and he kept walking. Felt like a really hard and deliberate kick.
Especially since he just kept walking knowing he kicked me really hard. I felt the pain surge through my whole foot and lower leg. I didn’t make noise because I froze in shock and confusion.
It’s bruising and stings now. Followed coworkers’ reminder and I put an ice pack on it and it helped it feel a tad better.

• I’m just glad it’s not swollen and super bruised up and nothing seems broken/worse…I hope
  • thin purpley veins there
  • nervous system sensations at my lower leg and that foot area too
• it just aches now
• I’m flabbergasted someone would do that………….
• even if it was an “accident” why would you walk with full force in your legs like kicking??? I felt his leg continue to keep going up and didn’t even retract at all until the kick motion ended
  • my gut feels like it’s intentional :/
• I did look back at him walking away through the crowd and he was leaning while walking and strutting….???
  • stuff that guy, he should face karma >:(
• I did wonder if I should have made a ruckus but I don’t want to provoke a violent/kicking and physically taller man/guy further
  • also I freeze when I encounter an unexpected situation to process/reflect
  • I am not a fast nor noisy reactor…
• he took advantage of the fact that I wasn’t fully paying attention and was distracted with my phone too
• I did talk about it with coworkers, peeps and my tiny discord server as I was/am quite shaken
  • I felt reassured and am thankful :’) Thankyouuuuuu
• I just hope it heals wah 🙁

Personal update

• not doing games week but again not sure about Parallels either – it’s a super popular indie dev presentation event where tickets often sell out
  • I don’t feel like I belong in that space though
  • it can feel cliquey as when I did go many years ago, it felt like I’m an lonely, wandering outsider as indie people knew each other
    • and it’s just hard to connect with anyone
    • (then again this is usually the case)
  • I knew a few people but just “hello and okay bye” level
    • and not “attend as event buddies” level :’)
  • the fact that it’s a night time event and I have no buddy to go with also means it’s not for me
    • I am not keen to be a third/extra wheel to a couple or huge group…
    • maybe I should be the quiet, sad extra and stop being a hermit for one event….
  • the fomo is strong with this one
• learning that Centrelink and Job Seeker continues to be horrible, unsupportive and way below poverty line as well if you actually manage to get it happening
  • it’s not enough to live on with the current costs of living….by design
  • as if getting a job is easy…. 🙁
• watched Gamescom opening night live and other trailers
  • I feel like less games are for me to play but to watch instead
  • it’s been like this for a long time…am I a gamer anymore????
  • I shared trailers I did watch and/or liked at my discord server as usual ;P
• I watched the game Endacopia
  • a wonderful game, rich cast of key characters and compelling, thought provoking story about a kid dealing with abuse, neglect and staying kind, connecting/finding friends and finding different versions of family through the 3 endings
  • some of the Surgeon’s songs are bangers
  • game left me reflective, melancholic and it’s heart warming too during those sentimental, good, healing moments
  • huge recommendation – play/experience or watch it
• I watched the great movie The Sheep Detectives (SPOILERS)
  • I enjoyed this and the song is stuck in my head
  • I did not guess whodunnit well as I was there for the ride and the heartfelt moments
  • I do wonder why he didn’t split the money equally between his kids for his will though
    • but then we won’t have the movie
    • he chooses her as the “winter” lamb? Though they’re twins?
• Turns out I’m prone to eye infections and have dry eye because I have swelling, clogged eye oil glands….
  • if that eye specialist/surgeon explained this to me last year or so in the first place, I might not have been infected with viral and bacterial conjunctivitis this month for 14 days!! ARGH
    • it hurt and stung for some days and hard to keep open during others…
  • I have to go back to him again and he’s not cheap oof
  • also my optometrist was passive aggressive, impatient, fast talking, rude and blunt
    • (which left me really bummed afterwards)
    • but silver lining is that I finally learned the gist of what I needed to know
  • I need to chase up the expensive specialist for answers but I have to wait till October UGH
  • also been trying to find less frustrating methods of warm compress and eyelid cleaning
    • face cloth doesn’t even sustain the heat well, you have to keep getting hottish warm water on it again and it’s messy/wet everywhere
    • trying to find heat eye masks that’s at the safe temperature and it’s sustainable to keep doing daily
    • search continues AUGH
• been having some tummy stinging/aches during most days in the past week because of bad or greasy food???
  • it’s so hard trying to figure out what keeps triggering it…
  • I want to enjoy food too 🙁
• will consider doing a food channel at my tiny discord server later down the track
• learning about what “coding agents” are and it’s depressing how many corners they’re cutting at the expense of quality control
  • genAi will never fully go away and stop being used for horrible things and in unethical ways unfortunately
    • I can only hope that the bubble bursts as they are not making profit/money from this
    • I’m tired of seeing generatedAi flyers, products and posters EW
  • relatively how locally hosted genAi/agents are more sustainable, more environmentally friendly, cheaper in the long run as it has no monthly cost (but expensive to start/upfront)
  • not that I know the technicalities…
• rising bills and fees haunted me this month and the coming months eep 🙁
• been struggling to keep my romance slop consumption minimal
  • I shall keep trying by keeping myself busy with other things
• juggling with work as usual, things being worked out and feeling lonely at work at times :’)
• work slack now has too many emotes and I don’t like being overwhelmed with too many flashy, super niche, terribly detailed and unnecessary choices haha
  • trying to find some of the emotes I use because they got pushed off to a different emote handle
  • trying find new ones I’d use (there’s some twitch and gaming ones in there)

Whelp I won’t proofread too much I need to head off….I’m so tired with this head fatigue.

Take care and catch you in the comments, at the discord, in the next blog post or the other places I still post my latest art to!

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