First 6 days; figure drawing dailies are hard to keep up

MoChu is 12th May – 12th of June.

This figure drawing challenge is “post something by cutoff time” else you get kicked out of the server. Like last year’s public kimo challenge.

I still need to do my daily today and feeling behind!!

I don’t have time to do the muscles and skeletal quests and I won’t force it. I learned my lesson – I am not getting tempted, not doing too much and not burning myself out with this challenge!

It’s still a lot though and I feel like I’m not getting what I want done 🙁

And thankfully no fake rent money (like March Hotel) to worry about – just post your daily on time!

They do have their own fake currency for the market but I’m not bothered with that.

I do not plan to do Chroma Corps or Art fight as I’m done with art server daily challenges!! Those challenges are not for me!! I don’t want to draw other’s OCs and stress out about making my own OC reference sheets haha

If I want to do dailies, I’ll do my own weeklies ;P

Leonie rambles about

• THE BLADE (1995): The Edges of Wuxia | Criterion x Every Frame a Painting
  • I wasn’t expecting Every Frame a Painting to return
• I am not convinced in the new Yoshi and the Mysterious Book game, it’s not for me….
  • even though the art is really great and charming
• watched Directive 8020 and it was compelling (spoiler)
  • the twist was unexpected
  • but the story ended in an unsatisfying way in the last third…

“the dating advice that changed my life” video

• stressing I don’t have dating experience so I’m just rambling ;P
• 100 married couples advice interview snippets video
• stumbled upon this video and read the recommended blog post that inspired the video too
  • it’s a lot of being able to embrace someone’s weaknesses, internal complexities and weirdness
  • and transforming, making mistakes and growing alongside them
  • not about changing someone else
  • and talk about meaningful things that matter and make you feel alive?
  • and not about what other people think of them on the conventionally attractive scale and level of influence, power, career, finances, reputation
  • not about being transactional with people
  • how you cannot contain someone by your idea, caricature and conceptual box of them
    • because people are always changing,
    • people are “unfinished”
    • and you don’t fully know someone
    • unless people refuse, have their own clashing values and choose not to change then that’s another story…..
  • about investing into someone’s “continual expansion” in your (friendships and) relationships
  • about having “both your own interests and goals and becoming more of yourselves
    • but keep meeting each other and choosing each other over and over, day by day”
  • about persevering in finding new things about each other
  • consistently being calm, joyful and relaxed together and also have space to be yourself
    • not intense, fickle, stressful, insecure, anxious, confused, fakeness, lack of care
    • not just about attraction and desire
  • and just embrace love as an adventure with a lot of uncertainty
    • it’s never really about being certain
• I’m just really uncomfortable with dating though – I am scared because if feel’s like you’re being on sale, trying to be impressive and being judged (and vice versa)
  • it’s just not fun and instead seems stressful
  • indeed having a checklist or rough “type” you’re looking for can be used as an excuse to protect yourself from disappointment, from trying, from exploring, from depth, from hurt, from rejection, etc
  • I don’t know what unknown expectations I am inevitably not meeting so I don’t bother haha
    • I don’t want a lot of things that people expect from a relationship anyway….
• I’d rather just talk and connect as people
  • there’s times long in the past where I’m just too flustered around someone for this to even happen so I just hide/avoid like an anxious, socially inept and conflict avoidant coward :’)
  • I probably like the idea of them and not actually them as a person by knowing them
    • maybe I keep them at a distance for this reason and the fear of change
• a lot of people and friends don’t want to talk about deep things though
  • most want to keep things chill and shallow
• some drop off and stop replying….
  • I am not keen about playing games either
  • I don’t want to be the one who’s initiating all the time for conversation to happen at all
  • it just means it’s not mutual…and you’re out of mind
• I’ll just see this as also a frame of mind for friendships too….
  • I do appreciate 1 to 1 chats / messages!!
• but this is like trying to find a bunch of unicorns with the people in your life + trial and error!!

Finally watched the Super Mario Galaxy Movie (spoiler)

• I actually didn’t have the “when is this movie over?” as much with this sequel compared to the first movie
• it’s disappointing with the story and how they didn’t allow Bowser and Bowser Jr have satisfying character arcs
  • they always have to go back to being the antagonists….
    • can’t disrupt the status quo of the games
  • not that I was fully sold on Bowser being Mario, Luigi and co’s friend
    • he was keen on escaping by pretending to be good from rehab
    • getting hit does not cure you from the mini mushroom…….
    • then he just sacrifices his freedom for them by becoming a worker bee
      • it felt genuine…vaguely?
    • didn’t want to kill them and stopped his son when his son was going to
      • so his son didn’t kill and I thought they would stick with that
    • went back to betraying them and being petty and murderous again because his son says “you don’t need friends” and that Bowser was meant to be king of the universe? Huh?
      • it’s too fast for me as they were trying to get to the next key plot beat
    • does he have a mind of his own???
    • Is he just too power hungry to care and his son is saying what he wants to hear?
    • It’s probably not this deep ;P
  • it felt like they didn’t want to commit too heavily if he as genuine or not because it wasn’t executed convincingly….
  • why is Bowser Jr against having friends? Why is he murderous? Why was he expelled? How did he learn to be an inventor (they cut out Professor E. Gadd who is the actual inventor)?
• the constant Mario game references are nice but shallow (it’s a huge game ad)
  • no Mario RPG games representation at all….
  • also it’s just overwhelming
• Rosalina’s screentime and original Mario Galaxy backstory suffered
  • just so that Peach has her backstory fleshed out
  • and so that Rosalina can be saved by the main cast…
• I loved the Bowser puppet show props and stuff – it’s the best and charming thing about the movie
  • and also Bowser’s paintings
  • I do love the father/son thing
  • how we don’t really know for sure if Bowser’s a good role model dad or not
• so many plot holes I am not bothered remembering
• so many inappropriate “put iconic Mario music here when it’s not appropriate to the scene”
  • and they could have played it earlier when it would have worked (Gusty Garden)
  • or not include it at all (Jump super star)
• a lot of “why is this scene/character sequence a thing” like the T-Rex one and the whole casino sequence
• I enjoyed the 2D animated Star Fox sequence – get me a show like this!!
• sequence with Mario and Luigi fighting with Bowser Jr was good and some others
• so frustrating because there’s a lot of good potential character depth, art, animation, sequences, some quiet character moments but they were usually rushing to the next thing especially towards the end
  • there’s still not much space to breathe for an actual overarching deeper movie message
• I didn’t find the blue luma jailer amusing as they spoiled this in trailers
  • and it turned out that it was an after credits sequence…
• wow after the “Princess Peach and Mario are just friends” when it’s not haha
  • Moustache got his cheek kiss from the Princess
  • I guess they do Mario Maker kaiso platforming as a team with skill (when Bowser Jr was trying to kill Peach and Mario)
• it’s a shame they didn’t let any of the princesses wear the different costumes from powerups….
  • they’re not allowed to wear other things beyond princess dresses???
• that Super Mario World sequence where they rebuild Peach’s castle where they were all in that pixel art style
  • Peach’s left fringe was one pixel off – there was too much forehead space!!
• is the next movie going to be about Luigi’s Mansion series and Princess Daisy? :0
  • the one OTP as I think about Daisy’s Circuit haha
• I remember there was more to nitpick but there’s no point in remembering ;P

Sleepy tired….

• struggling to get time to write in my blog!!
  • life was stressful even though I took a longer break
  • life admin took over because it had to happen
    • took some days crashing learning and figuring something out and it was overwhelming
• I had to take a longer break from posting because I needed a longer break since burning out on Plein Airpril
• what do you do with obstinate, obnoxious, narcissistic, manipulative, stressful, entitled, selfish people/hoarders….it’s so frustrating
• made this guestbook page for my blog
  • doubt I’ll get new people though because I’ve done this before years ago
• reminder that I post art resources and other finds at my discord server
• trying to keep my tense body relax is hard…

Thanks for reading and catch you around in the next post or at my discord!

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