Little timelapse with Goth Girl and this couple

Decided to put Goth Girl’s timelapse in here too!

I’m so indecisive with making youtube videos and when I should make it…it’s somewhat more work and it seems like people just want to see fanart. Not much people stick around for me ;’P

So I don’t know if I’ll get much out of this video with my ocs…I’ll see how it goes. It probably doesn’t matter as it’s hard to predict if a video will do well or not – usually not well though. Youtube and social media are fickle and what matters more is if I enjoy doing it so that it’s sustainable…

I will probably stop saving timelapses for everything (be more picky if I am making a video – I am reminding myself here) and just focus on learning, making, studying and blogging about art instead next year. I need to put my foot down and focus on things that work better for me. I always have things to juggle anyway! But I’m so used to saving them :’)

I am not sure what the new normal is yet – I’ll have to play it by ear, see how I go and be more selective.
Perhaps combine certain timelapses together like this one as the default thing to do!

My old youtube channel has never been big but I still do appreciate the random and rare comments I get over there!! Thank youuuu :’)

I hope people stick around at this blog and my discord server! And I guess my cara, bluesky and youtube community tab haha

Lost in your eyes 💕

quiet devil lady and fallen angel gentleman looking into each other’s eyes gently in each other’s arms, smiling (for a date night)

He’s a fallen angel and she’s a quiet devil and both are just trying to live how they want together through the good, challenging and mundane times <3 A fantasy relationship haha

Together side by side 💙❤️🧡💛

quiet devil lady and fallen angel gentleman standing side by side with each other, eyes closed and content being together moving forward (for a date night)

These two characters were made for an art event for a Monster Prom themed original character.

I went for character designing two of them so that they can be a couple! It’s a bit out of my comfort zone though.

Hey I don’t have real experience with affectionate, loving, loyal, trusting relationships/companionship but I can imagine with characters of my own :’) There was some “should I even do this???” as I felt waves of sadness and helplessness about my own loneliness ;P

I’m not fully happy with the character designs and I need to learn/practice more. Maybe I’ll nitpick and iterate them some more when I feel like it in the distant future.

Doing character designs is hard because you have to commit to a vision and when you don’t know the story you’re trying to tell, it doesn’t come together…ah the creative process!! It’s time consuming and a struggle trying to find your way through trial and error.

I don’t really have a huge compelling story I’d want to tell out of thin air!! As much as I admire and get inspired by graphic novelists/artists/mangaka and animators I don’t have the drive, energy, interest to do huge projects in my spare time right now. I guess I’m more about story moments/interactions, mood/vibes and striving for quality, appealing visual designs.

Leonie personal rambles…

• a little discussion on artists leaving social media a bit at my tiny discord server
  • I’m a bit more active at my discord server to discuss about art topics and games when it comes up
• feeling like I’m not making the most of my holidays…it’s gone so fast!!
  • Nooooooooooooo
• watched the latest Rosalina’s storybook story from the re-release of the Super Mario Galaxy bundle for the new chapters/pages
  • Lubba is a girl and Mari was caged in the Super Mario Movie??
  • still a very bittersweet backstory :’)
  • I wonder how they’ll tackle Rosalina’s story in the upcoming Galaxy movie…
• watching “Bye Sweet Carole”
  • the gameplay itself is not great, tedious when you’re constantly hunted and blocked from progressing and the anxiety turns into frustration with the game
  • the story so far is confusing/compelling though
  • I don’t think I can watch the whole playthrough…I might go for a story summary video
  • story reminds me of Rule of Rose, not just Clocktower
  • art and animation is pretty good (Bluth / Disney esque)
• I am slowly juggling with life day to day things,
  • reaching out 1 to 1 with peeps and hoping I don’t struggle with making conversation too much…
  • trying to do what I can with what I can control
    • and not other people and things out of my control (self reminder)
  • I had a time where I was apathetic, dissociating, hopeless and just mentally tired and jaded
    • trying to emotionally pick myself up and work on improving next time as always
  • currently I’m existential, sad and trying to figure out what I’m doing with my (personal) art and life
• I can’t seem to commit as I’m just led by what I’m currently interested in
  • I have so many things I can do and learn so eep!!
  • I want to juggle learning character driven silly illustrations in 2D
  • I guess low poly 3D too…at least finish the one I’m working on and move on eventually
  • character designs/illustrations!!
  • make art a habit!!
  • get through the many art resources and books I’ve hoarded…one day
• and what am I trying to do with my art???
  • that is the question I’m asking myself a lot…
  • I can’t fully quit fanart as I enjoy it…
  • I enjoy drawing characters I like so I need to learn how to make make it more compelling story and composition-wise…
  • do I want to do comics again?? It’s just so mentally draining to do those to the point that I dread it if I don’t have a plan and compelling drive to do it
    • I was considering doing a oneshot manga/comic but I keep chickening out
    • I feel like I need to do a lot of work figuring out the story and art style first so I don’t start…
  • I think I enjoy illustration more as it captures a moment and/or it’s a one-off
  • I can’t just do figure drawing and studies and that’s it…hm
• need to make sure I get some recreation game time because otherwise it doesn’t happen…
• also trying to exercise daily, managing my slight jaw strain and trying to not stress eat too much :’D
• 5 traits of autism animation
  • it’s not selective mutism (can’t speak due to anxiety) but audio processing (taking it slow to process words) in the video according to a commenter
  • also “deadpan laser eyes staring intensely or avoiding eye contact altogether” is missing haha
  • it’s hard to keep my brain turned on when I’m not interested in something sometimes…
• I’m procrastinating and indecisive with health appointments…
• Watched Nezha 2 the movie finally and I’m emotionally exhausted afterwards…(spoilers🙂
  • animation and character development is better
  • rooting for the Yasha water/petrifying guy in the end
  • the cat guy who works under the Dragon King grew on me too,
    • now with a backstory with a cheetah brother and a father
    • smart enough to deduce the framing that was happening (phew)
  • of course the Dragon King dad (and siblings) are hot in their human forms
    • the dragon creature designs are super cool though
  • the story the movies are based on are rife with frustrating, exhausting layers of misunderstandings
    • I remember tv show of Nezha I watched was also emotionally exhausting as Nezha often get scapegoated/blamed/outcasted/rejected/misunderstood again and again and again and it drags on the torture and misery – I got tired of it
  • the action sequences are cool and amazing but pacing wise it drags soooo long
  • that emotional moment was still effective :’)
  • RIP everyone and that family on the roof that passed away
  • didn’t really address Nezha’s ongoing body image/ugliness/eye bags/height issues
    • became a joke as dragon best friend Ao Bing both insults him about these things and compliments him for his personality
    • he just becomes powerful and hot I guess and he’s just a visual clone of hot dragon best guy friend again and stays that way
    • (they are the same chaos pearl originally in the first place but still, he loses that gremlin energy when he’s in “complete” adult/teen form)
    • he does accept being a demon/monster in the end and doesn’t want immortality
  • it felt like 2 movies in one
  • or they could have cut out the first trial with the bandits and the last trial with the rock lady obsessed with beauty with her magic mirror
    • they were just living their lives and not hurting anyone and the audience is left with the uneasy feeling with these immortal people
  • the gross bodily fluid jokes…I kind of ignored them, not my thing
  • kept reminded of Tekken with the old evil guy turning muscular/buff to fight in the end
    • power corrupts the system and is disguised as good intentions
    • who really are the “bad guys”
  • this movie is a lot of showing off what incredible things Chinese animation can do but to the point of feeling like a lot of showing off is happening and feeling like this could have been a show instead
  • I did find the movie compelling but not something I’d watch again…especially when it’s 2 hours and 30 something minutes
  • I do like Ao Bing and his father connecting with each other at last
  • of course there’s going to be another movie, the story itself (Investiture of the gods) is also very, very long…
    • there’s going to be Nezha’s brothers (Jinzha and Muzha) thrown into the mix and adventures with Nezha, Li Jing (his father), Taiyi, Ao Bing in the next movie probably

Anyhoo I might start bundling up studies into blog posts (like I have already) so it’s 2 or so blog posts a month! I’m reminding myself here really…

Because writing these up can be time consuming…!! When I try to keep blog posts short, thinking I don’t have much to say – I end up rambling longer because thoughts keep surfacing as I type haha

I’m not bothered doing blog tags too much though…

Juggling continues!! Let’s do our best day by day…

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