It’s pink happy guy Ura 宇良 💪Sumo wrestler studies!

Well I hope he does better for this tournament

Ink studies of magical and special Ura 宇良

Ura 宇良 sumo wrestler figure and portrait ink studies in motion where he does Ura magic / sumotori, rikishi, grand sumo

More Pink Magic Ura 宇良 🌸✨
Okay that’s all I have for my sumo wrestler/ rikishi ink studies
Ura portraits, on mic, wrestling, crouching, sumo movements

Nabatame 生田目 pt 2 & Souga 颯雅

Ink portrait and figure studies of sumo wrestler Nabatame in action and some portraits of sumo wrestler Souga too

Yokozuna Terunofuji 照ノ富士 when he was active :’)

I think this is all I have for sumo wrestler art/studies for now.

I don’t know if I’ll do anymore since I’ve lost interest in watching the upper division championship at times and I am just checking matches/results from the high and lower divisions wrestlers I care about.

Yokozuna Terunofuji 照ノ富士 ink studies, portrait studies, him holding the yusho cup, him holding the container, him in sumo wrestling action, folded arms, crouching, ceremony stance

art ink portrait and figure studies of yokozuna terunofuji, professional sumo wrestler

Leonie rambles about…

Well I guess I lied that the next blog post would be late this month. I felt like I should have a post for the month of May with all the remaining sumo wrestler studies I’ve done.

Some thoughts from Leonie of last year (2024) that I had to proofread:

• well I’m a solitary hermit artist, who needs lots of time alone, not great with small talk and would rather talk about hobbies and deep things. I accept that I’m weird :’)
  • most people get to know you and then they lose interest in you…
    • gotta cherish those who still stick around outside of the event/season/environment
  • from some past experiences I’ve tried talking, listening, asking but they’re not feeling the same
    • so I’m not really bothered to pretend to be “normal” nor am I going out of my way to be rejected
  • it’s hard indeed to be sure whether I’m accepted as I am…only time will tell :’)
  • also I agree with some people that social group hobbies are too expensive to keep up, especially when you’re not near the “happening places” nor have much energy to keep up
• someone said do board games??? But I want my alone evening time to survive, decompress and recover a bit…
  • also board games – it is more about quality time with quality, nice people than the game itself
  • though I get overwhelmed with learning a new game I don’t know about (which is most board games)
• someone else said that true friends are more about loyalty than depth
  • that you’re just happy your friends are doing well and alive and are happy to be around :’D
  • that people expect too much from friendships from the idealisation (no thanks to media)
  • I can see that; can you rely on someone to be there for you? People can’t show up 100% of the time but there’s definitely people who won’t show up at all when you reach out
  • That’s tough expectation to meet since adult friendships is a lot about working around schedules and people are not available in person otherwise (it’s rare if they do)
    • text communication at best
  • I guess it’s people you can buddy with and rely on and feel good around when you meet
• people have to both put in (a lot of ) effort and intention in to make the friendship work indeed
• a lot of risk taking as life is too short
  • there’s the numbers/mileage game of just trying anyway regardless on how it works out :’)
• self blame gets you nowhere when things don’t work out…not everything is about you
  • also don’t let others make it all about them either and blame you for everything
  • self respect and integrity are important
• Another pointed out – do you accept facing your faults and the faults of your friend?
  • are you able to confront them and vice versa about it = this is where the relationship can build and if you can both handle conflict
  • gosh I am conflict avoidant and it stresses me out in general, I freeze up, dwell/overthink and emotionally upset about it ruminating (as much as my deadpan exterior hides it) 🙁
  • I’m not sure if I’m brave enough to call out people unless I’m really fed up, frustrated and upset…
• again it’s better to be alone than with people who are terrible, disloyal, unreliable, energy draining and dishonest
• remember and be loyal to people who’ve been there for you!!
• as someone else pointed out – sometimes it’s good to sit with what sucks in life
  • you could be physically and/or emotionally alone with thoughts and feelings and ask yourself the why questions
  • and “do the hard thing” in baby steps
  • well I tried putting myself out there years ago and I can’t afford the money, time nor am I interested when I don’t have the energy and don’t want to burn out doing another outside thing :’)
  • I wasn’t really connecting with people there outside the event/class
  • I do think I should do it occasionally if I feel up for it…I have to force myself don’t I…
  • but doesn’t the actual long term benefits happen when you do it regularly and not one offs?? 🙁
• someone shared that there’s friends who are good to hang with but you don’t mean much to them as they are to you…yeah that’s most people
• Meanwhile it’s good to value friends who are
  • loyal, who notice you’re not around
    • (gah I feel like my presence is invisible/ghostly and it does bother me when people I cared more about didn’t notice I was there…at least I know priorities)
    • all I can do is notice people first when I have the energy/focus to
  • who care about your deep issues/troubles during tough times without laughing it away and quickly moving things along
    • if people keep moving onto the next topic without talking about deep meaningful times – it’s valid if they don’t want tmi and are avoiding trauma dumping
    • it definitely shuts me down and I trust/rely on you less if the emotional distancing is a pattern though
    • nothing wrong in keeping it casual and/or taking things slow
  • sharing the same values
  • and feeling comfortable and great around them
    • that’s feeling impossible when I’m tense around people I don’t know that well until several good chats and quality time happen
• gosh I feel that hurt when time/gestures/things I give wasn’t appreciated, acknowledged let alone reciprocated…
• I don’t want to struggle figuring out the quality of a friendship
  • is it really mostly vibes based? If there’s ongoing quality time together?
  • there are times where I’m just not feeling comfortable and pressured around someone but it’s just a feeling
• I don’t want to pretend to be someone I’m not
  • I have no energy at all to be that friendly, bubbly, “fun” persona as that is not me
  • it’s what I do to survive in customer service / public situations and after a short while I lose steam and can’t keep up that draining mask anyway
  • I am the deadpan, low energy hermit ;P
• I don’t want to overcompensate and get too people focused and lose myself
  • (I’ve experienced it before where my boundaries and needs get ignored because I go along with the group and not myself)
  • this is why I prefer 1 to 1 so I can give and receive quality time, attention, focus and connection without getting overstimulated/whelmed and super socially drained :’D

Personal update

• a mouse returned and went on places they shouldn’t this winter (the bed is contaminated and as a germaphobe…) and more chaos, stress, housework and drama this week on top of the other housework
• ascertained my working days in recent weeks so that it’s less stressful juggling recovery days
  • not yet used to my current routine but I am sleeping better
• shall continue to be frugal/stingy with my budget since I decided to stick with part time
  • grateful I have support!!
  • the recovery weekend time really helps :’)
• work has been intense and have been trying to adjust and stick to my sleep schedule
• mission “trying to feel connected and do 1 to 1 chats at work” is going quite nice
  • I don’t feel as isolated anymore but it’s just been over a month of figuring things out
  • it will be a slow burn and keeping expectations managed
  • also trying to say hello to old friends but also very low expectations and just greeting; no capacity for much ongoing text chats
  • my discord server is not much active but a few people occasionally post :’D
• still working through a blender tutorial and a challenge but struggling to juggle that in with housework, studies, work, sleep and recovery mode wahhh the juggling continues
  • after work I get tired and trying to squeeze something into mornings is proving difficult but it’s too early to say
• there’s much I want to learn and I don’t know what I should focus on with blender
  • grease pencil perhaps
  • I don’t find making semi/realistic character models interesting to me and I agree it’s super time consuming and frustrating to get right

Now I don’t know when the next blog post would be…the start of next month to recap June? Or fortnightly? It’s been 3 weeks since my last blog post too. Every 2-3 weeks then? I’ll see how I go…

I’m figuring it out posts that aren’t too long and aren’t too short. I don’t intend to write long blog posts every time either – I just want to recap the art I’ve been posting at the least.

I guess it also forces me to reflect a bit on the past weeks or so…not that much people read these :<

GAH I need to sleep I have things to work and juggle around too!!

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