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I drew the reference and added him holding a sword!

Wow thank you for the support on my struggle/studies so far! 🥹
I will slow down in the coming weeks so I’ll be figuring out a new sustainable normal with juggling life, art, studies.

I made the old mistake of checking notifications too often though…I need to stop that. And people come and go too wah. Interesting that I have more engagement and followers at bluesky now instead of cara…it’s usually the other way around.

Much appreciation if you do stick around & at my tiny, quiet discord server!! 😊💖

Man in power pose, standing legs apart, hands on top of a sword hilt that is standing upright on the ground. And extra portrait study of him holding the sword in chibi form.

Nope bluesky is just quiet with engagement again since this post. And this is how posting studies and not for popularity is…people lose interest! Ah well I’m not trying to cater for an audience, I’m trying to practice, learn and so on 😛

Day 28A: Absolutely not ❌ figure and lighting study 💡

Dressed up older lady seated, eyes closed and turning her head away from the left and arms and hands in the air in refusal. Also a portrait study attempt of her.

Ooh people didn’t resonate with this study at bluesky but I’m not too bothered as I’m just sharing studies ;P

I just need to stop checking for validation wahhh

Day 28B: Hair studies and portraits 💇🏾‍♀️

Four portraits of people with different hair styles
Not sure if I should keep posting daily/regular studies at Cara
or if I should just post weekly recap blog posts 🤔
Am I too spammy if I post super rough, “ugly” studies/sketches too? Hmm…

I don’t want to overthink it – I guess I’ll see how I go on a case by case basis, will keep rough stuff at my blog and won’t put everything in the portfolio section 🤔

Yeah it was at this point bsky is quiet and fickle for me but hey I still have Cara :0!!

Day 29A: What lies beneath 👇 figure studies

Gosh I feel like an insecure, anxious, sad fraud among inspiring artists but I’ll keep learning & creating 🥹❤️‍🔥

3 kids in white robes looking beneath them and the tallest boy points below. The girl holds a spoon on one hand and her hair to the side with the other. The youngest boy on the left stares following the older boy’s pointing.
What are they doing. Big soup below?? The river side?
Anyhoo trying to be less anxious about things ahhhhh

I feel like I went too ham struggling/studying/iterating sometimes that it takes me almost 2 months to do the 1 month challenge 😆
Trying to not make it a slog, not burn out, keep it interesting and not sure how to make it a regular thing yet…

Tummy discomfort and ache anxiety happening 🙁

Tummy unwell during the past weeks…going to seek doctor advice…

Day 29B: Crimson portrait with a snake 🐍

Portrait of a lady in intense red/crimson lighting looking off to the side while holding and posing with a white snake in her hands/arms

Having an anxious achy tummy for a while 😖

Day 30A: Arise ✨

Buff lady!!

Figure drawings of a body building, muscular lady posing for the judges with her legs in a lunge position, her arms outstretched to the side with one bent at 90 degrees to the sky and her looking up and to her right side.

🎀 I’m making an idol debut with a smile!!! ^o^✨

likes: custard & pork buns, alone time
hates: whipped cream

Can’t sing & will run out of energy fast but shall try anyway ;D

Ended up looking at idol singers a little for this ;0

🎀 Deadpan miming on mic! 🎵

This is how I really perform on stage – just no energy and no expression 😔

Little timelapse!

Made my persona into an idol for an art event! Just a silly project I wanted to join in on!

For a time I was thinking of calling my persona Yulee or Yuli but I’m not super sure about that yet so I took it back.

Leonie rambles about…

I have been posting daily or at least regularly during the week just so people know I exist and keeping up the art/study habit :’) I do plan to slow down with posting sometime next month but I don’t know what that looks like yet as I haven’t experienced or settled on a flexible routine I can stick with yet.

Hope to figure out my tummy concerns from the past few weeks eep!! And managing/juggling my anxiety, overthinking, existential feelings, impostor syndrome, insecurities, life, work, chores, complicated feelings and whatnot as always! Getting my head around everything now that my break is over plus I have to get use to the normal routines again. I am struggling to wake up at times and trying to get enough sleep more.

It sucks and it’s disappointing, saddening, hurtful, humbling and frustrating when you don’t feel important or special and all you can do is just make the most of what you have now, on what you can control, do your best, take things slow and take the chance/reach out/cherish the people in your life who are on the same page, feel mutual and who matter :’) Or just focus on the present as best you can…

Yes I’m reminding myself as usual :’)

Gosh it’s so cold with the weather now!!

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