✨Lots of Zeldas! 👍The Legend of Zelda: Echoes of Wisdom!!
Little timelapse!
More Zelda fanart I did before I played the game ;P
Character sheet based on what I saw from the trailers! :0
My thoughts on the game are at my previous post here.
Leonie’s little personal ramble
So the height of the exhausting emotional drama, tension, conflict and stress and sleep schedule changes has begun and is happening. It’s not great and I won’t go into details for the sake of privacy. And unforeseen costs to be determined too…oof. I’m not even the one most affected!! There’s a lot of things to adapt, outages/things to work around until late March… 🙁
I get stressed when routines and things are just all over the place too…! Shall treat my limited types of foods as a temporary diet. Just hoping things work out smoothly and to keep enduring it…
And work has been intense and distracting too; hopefully I can take things slower to recover when able :’)
And baby steps with socialising with coworkers I’m comfortable with (even if in text or 1 to 1s)! Trying to connect with a small handful of coworkers…slowly! Forming a connection with a work buddy too! But only if it’s mutual that is – I don’t want to force it or for someone to pressure/force/guilt me to respond to them. And sometimes it’s right to let go and leave people alone. Hurt feelings are valid though…have been on both sides as we all have. It’s hard to be upfront about it so people usually quietly fade/ghost/keep it work focused. Or it’s brief and casual and then they also fade away (this is most of the time my experience as people already have friends). And that’s normal…it doesn’t necessarily get easier though.
Indeed I’d rather let it go than to keep it going if I’m not feeling positive, valued, interested and compatible in their company beyond professional shenanigans. I feel anxious and drained if I force them to be interested/invested or I feel pressured/obligated to be interested/responsive. People change and move on too.
Learning to make it clear if I really want more of a connection given that I am reserved and quiet by nature…trying to be more brave?? Otherwise if both sides are not on the same page with intentions, interest, effort, time, social capacity and on an emotional level – I do keep it brief, move on and reign in any other emotional expectations if there are any.
It doesn’t help that I give the impression that I hate people (thanks resting :< face). Although there are definitely some people who make me anxious/negative/drained enough to avoid them, most of the time it’s more that I am protective of my limited low energy, am not talkative (especially if I haven’t warmed up to someone or if I’m in an open environment) and I hyperfocus on what I’m doing at present. So I’m selective with who I am interested with and want to chat and connect with. Gah it’s hard but always figuring it out :’)
Yes I do overthink and am sensitive about these things ;P
I’m keeping this short as I need to sleep. And feeling a tad glum. I hope my rambles are coherent!
And I hope it’s not emotionally draining and stressful again tomorrow…
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