Monday, June 18, 2018

SuperListenMode: Getting Emotionally Ready for Social Situations

SuperListenMode: Getting Emotionally Ready for Social Situations

I have that deadpan tired quiet "I don't care anymore" face when I'm over the limits of my energy. Then I look forward to and embrace that wonderful recovery solitary time haha

Usually I argue that it's not worth going if it's just an hour - I need to stay longer to make the most of the whole thing and transport time or not go at all. On the other hand, I do need some morsels of social time or I risk feeling disconnected, excluded and not valuable to people in general. Bonding with loneliness as a friend for too long isn't great. I've been there countless times.

Definitely a balance of making sure I get naps, breaks, social time, the fact that I can leave and say no if I'm not feeling up to it and trust that kind people will understand. :')

Saturday, June 16, 2018

BurpStickers 2018: CatBlobs and more Collection! Reflecting on the journey

Leonie's small blog island says hullo! (:

It's been a while hey?

    Just some of the Sticker Designs I made for this project! 
    Well the ones I have left to give out anyway...the rest are below ;)

    Oh if you're keen on purchasing these BurpStickers & supporting my work, head over to my RedBubble!
    Though it's not much and I don't expect sales honestly.

    The Social Media Shenanigans [if you missed it]
    LiaSae & AussieBen cats
    MrChad's Aslan the cat
    kindofstrange's Harley the cat
    VerbVirus' Pnin the cat
    TinManNeil's cat
    Gaohmee & Emre's Tank the cat
    Kath's cats & BWHolland's cat
    Polycount, ohyoufox, Pepper cats
    Lucy's cat, Ryan's dog, Ben Bunny
    Scott's, Mel's and Liam's cats
    Scottish fold & Hamster
    Switch Cat, Mighty Games Cat, Hipster Whale Cat [tributes]
    Colours of the Rainbow Cats
    Pride Panda Cat & Love Cat
    Gift Cats for Liam, Kalonica, Kristy and Lauren
    BearCat Me?
    VectorBurpQuest through cats: the Refection!

    Wednesday, June 13, 2018

    SuperListenMode: Floating in Sadness

    SuperListenMode: Floating in Sadness

    Acknowledgement. Being understanding to oneself. There is no shame in being unhappy, lost, trapped, lonely, disappointed, confused, stuck and/or frustrated. 

    Focusing on the root of the problem rather than seeking escapism and distractions for too long. Then comes the process of healing in whichever healthy methods and support that help you...however long it needs with resilience, gratitude, support and love. 

    Of course it's easier said than done and there are no magical answers - you choose, act and forge your own meaning based on what drives you in your core. Hey personally I hope to manage all this, stay focused and become more at peace with the process of being who I am, with feelings.

    Staying kind and true to yourself as you learn and grow. <3

    Just rambling to myself :')

    Monday, June 11, 2018

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 5b

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 5b

    Going off on terrible stereotypes and misconceptions on neuroscience & medication - my apologies for those & my attempt at character improv! It does highlight to me how ignorant I am and how there's so much for me to learn. 

    And then my most embarrassing second role where I couldn't talk in that fake voice any longer and choked talked into a spit fountain in front of the class...

    The teacher reassured me and wiped the floor but gosh I was half stuck standing there and half in shame as the exercise ended there. 
    We pretended that nothing happened. :')

    Acting in voices is really hard. Improv is really hard when it gets deep into becoming people/things you're not, you have no prior knowledge on and you say the most ignorant, silly things which may end up being funny or weird. 

    Yes, it shouldn't matter. Improv is meant to be non judgemental if you're genuinely just being open minded and just doing the best with what you have. But I feel like I'm expressing more silly unhelpful things into the world :')

    I don't know if it's adrenaline, stress or my survival instincts helping me get through these lessons haha    

    Wednesday, June 6, 2018

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 5a

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 5a

    I was terrible at acting but it felt real in my imagination ;)

    Had NO idea what an arrogant barista is like when I know that they're just any other person :0 Had to actively stop being self conscious while other people were embracing it. Then there was making up accusations and responding to them...pretending things I'm not! D: 

    A lot of stopping myself from judging myself & overthinking as usual in this imaginary silly playground of Improv.

    Oh...someone knew I used to be a sad teacher and gave someone else that role to perform. I knew you were put on the spot [I understand] but I know what you did! Hurts as it felt too real. Seeing how someone else would pretend to be an "awkward teacher". It's probably how my own students back then saw me...incompetent and incoherent :')

    Monday, June 4, 2018

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 4b

    SuperListenMode: Improv Class Episode 4b

    Taking care not to talk over my scene partner and making sure I take some improv responsibility too! Pretending I know something I don't and blabbing about it is the complete OPPOSITE of me! 

    Apparently I have a sealed and preserved 1930's tram track that caused the crash of 1976 ;P We have a problem hoho

    Both of us are learning to not overthink and just do it and we managed okay - teamwork!! :')

    I was brave enough to ask lots of questions for other people's scenes on possum mating, teleportation, snails and tornadoes. Feeling less inhibited now...warming up to the class generally as a whole a little bit more in that I'll just do my own thing. At least for this lesson. 

    And then there was a time where we all pretended to be fearful chickens.
    And another when I talked about how yoghurt is awesome.
    But that's something else ;)

    Friday, June 1, 2018

    Quick BurpDoodle: O____O at PokemonQuest

    BurpDoodle: O____O #PokemonQuest
    I don't know, I was told it seems like old Pokemon Rumble? Ah well if you enjoy it, have fun! I'm just someone who used to love Pokemon as a kid, I don't play them anymore :')
    Since I do a lot of voxel art for work, I just see where they're being sneaky with the art style ;P