Friday, October 19, 2018

SuperListenMode: Bringing out the Headphones + BurpDoodle: Out of Stamina + MIGW attendance ramble

SuperListenMode: Bringing out the Headphones
Noise cancelling headphones was suggested for me to cope better with the open office environment at work and I finally researched and splurged on a set on my own. And I got two headphones stands. Gosh again I feel guilty for spending on myself...I always feel like I need to be more frugal on money but fasting with meals cuts some expenses down ;___;

But yes, I do find open office environment distracting when I need to focus, block out everything and do the work. Although they're more manageable for me, the internet and Slack are distracting already by themselves! There's no fort of solitude for me! I don't know how I would survive in complete solitude anyway...it'll require a complete life and career change.

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodles: Kizuna Ai fanart + on crunch & letting go from being a workaholic perfectionist

Inktober BurpDoodle: Kizuna Ai fanart
I watched some of her videos ages ago because I was fascinated; she's a funny & cool virtual YouTuber/Vlogger! I'm not sure if I'm the target audience but I appreciated her sweet appeal :D

Inktober BurpDoodle: Cute but deadly Kizuna Ai
Wanted to do another one ;D

Haven't watched a lot of her videos but from what I've seen, I like her sense of humour! :0 This is a blatantly manufactured online/virtual personality and it's such a clever way do it!

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

SuperListenMode: Social Skills RPG + BurpDoodle: I got mixed feelings

SuperListenMode for Games Week: Social Skills RPG
"Yeah, I'm bad at socialising."
"You're fine, Leonie. Geez."
"If you say so..."
Then why do I feel so lonely, exhausted, sad and terrible at this :'(
I feel like I'm doing improv sometimes ;___;

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Melbourne Zoo Photo Adventures 2018 + BurpDoodle: Cat Toaster + Posting schedule & Online friendships

Melbourne Zoo Adventures & more photos below! 
These two are my favourite sketches: the Black Swan & the Royal Spoonbill (:

Monday, October 15, 2018

SuperListenMode: How are you Leonie?

Games Week SuperListenMode: How are you Leonie?
Speaking of deep conversations at social things...
Do you really want the answer to that? ;)

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: "Heehee oh I like you"

Inktober BurpDoodle: "Heehee oh I like you"
This vibrant green highlighter is waxy ;D

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Friday, October 12, 2018

SuperListenMode: Small catch ups at #MelbourneGamesWeek

SuperListenMode: Small catch ups at #MelbourneGamesWeek
I know the whole idea is to connect with someone.
Not to meet every single person.

Last year I accepted the struggle to make meaningful conversations and defaulted to what I've seen & did recently. Too tired being there all day, all week around lots of people. Drawing a blank. Sensory overload from everything.

Thursday, October 11, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: Hot waves

Inktober BurpDoodle: Hot waves
I'm using highlighters like an abnormal person ;P
Not ready to use the better quality markers :<
They're scary right now.

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Wednesday, October 10, 2018

Birthday BurpDoodle for Lauren 2018

Birthday illustrated BurpDoodle for Lauren 2018
Combined Rilakkuma, Gudetama, durian, tea, colours, Lumi and herself all into a picture <3 

Yes I love durian too, it's wonderfully delicious to me ;P
If you think it stinks...well...I respect that.

Enjoy a wonderful special week and year ahead with your loved ones and friends Lauren!! ^o^ Thank you for being a shining inspiring light of generosity, kindness and love. And the occasional special, generous and sweet lunch catch ups!

Lots of love and hugs!! <3

I actually started and finished this during 27th/28th of May when I wasn't feeling well [gloomy and in pain] to keep myself distracted. 
So this was a gamble...I don't know if she'll look like this by October! It was hard as I didn't know what to illustrate for her, felt stuck and paralysed. 
After playing around, I stumbled onto making this. ;D

Hope she likes it ^o^'

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Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: "Oh come on now! Got no time for this!"

Inktober BurpDoodle: "Oh come on now!
Got no time for this!"
Just having fun with it ;D 

I fell behind a bit but I'm just on track. Shaking off that rust continues.
I hope there will be a point where I keep going, learning and not tag it as inktober anymore. Experiment with things. Hopeful.

I'm pretending I'm confident here ;P

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Monday, October 8, 2018

SuperListenMode: Introvert Versus Mega Games Industry Events

SuperListenMode: Introvert Versus Mega Games Industry Events
Since Melbourne Games Week is coming up later this month, I need recovery time! I prefer lovely small catch ups & deep conversations!

Away from things that revolve around drinking and noise.
Avoid most crowded, rowdy late night parties and rest up instead. 
Else I become a super sad, isolated, quiet zombie ;P

Saturday, October 6, 2018

BurpDoodle: Piffle launched globally yesterday! ^o^

BurpDoodle: Piffle launched globally yesterday! ^o^

Didn't work much on this game myself so consider this unofficial fanart in congratulations to the whole hardworking Mighty Piffle team [published by Hipster Whale!] I doodled this back in July for fun :D 

And kudos to the incredible Scott/cronobreak for creating the art and cute character designs! Again, I didn't make this ;P  

It's been described by cool peeps as Puzzle Bobble + Neko Astume!

Check it out, support them and have a play:

I don't think I want to actually wear a onsie. 
Maybe it is snug? Like a blanket? Is it flimsy or fluffy strong? I don't know.
Maybe it feels like becoming a life sized soft toy :0

Hopefully the team are getting some good rest and celebrations before continuing more hardwork on more Piffle updates! :D 

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Friday, October 5, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: Pikachu & Pichu Cutie Pies

Inktober BurpDoodle: Pikachu & Pichu Cutie Pies

I feel so rusty doing these but shaking off this creative rut is going to take small steps and however long it needs. Trying to not push myself hard since I'm still recovering from mental, creative and physical burnout :')

Anyhoo, please enjoy the weekend ahead <3

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Thursday, October 4, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: Pandoria & Zeke of Xenoblade Chronicles 2

Inktober BurpDoodle: Pandoria & Zeke of Xenoblade Chronicles 2
They're Team Rocket to me together with Turters.

They're only remaining characters I like along with Morag and maybe a few others I can't recall ;P

Apparently the Torna DLC is much better than the main game. Still I feel pretty mixed to say the least about XC2 especially as a story, Nia, gacha system, the boring main lead Rex and its fanservice moments and character designs even now. Seeing Shulk and Fiora in this game as DLC is interesting/weird too. :S

I'm going to space out my Inktober BurpDoodles. Hope to push my comfort zone ;D

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Wednesday, October 3, 2018

SuperListenMode: On being a fan and Parasocial Relationships

SuperListenMode: On being a fan and Parasocial Relationships

My definition of a Parasocial Relationship is when it's a one way bond with between someone's public persona and professional brand [or a fictional one] versus the consumer, audience and individual. It becomes complicated, harmful and nuanced when boundaries are not clear and established. 

Yes I'm fascinated with how we portray & express authenticity over social media :0 I'm trying to be more aware when I post things myself!

Tuesday, October 2, 2018

Inktober BurpDoodle: New Haircut!!

Inktober BurpDoodle: New Haircut!!
Now all my SLM comics are outdated with my old, longer hair. 
The classy, stylish Ariel [check out her workwas the only one who complimented my haircut disaster yesterday so thank you again; it means a lot! ^o^ <3

I hurt my finger a bit and ruined my jumper cutting my own hair though :<
This is the first time I've ever cut it this short since highschool and it's pretty refreshing to not worry as much about hair grooming and my head feels lighter!! :D 

Currently using ballpoint & highlighters as I'm too scared to use my more fancy, expensive stuff. I'm just doing Inktober in an attempt to recover from my creative burnout and push my comfort zone in little baby steps :'(

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Monday, October 1, 2018

SuperListenMode: Expressing warm fuzzy feelings with Lauren

SuperListenMode: Expressing warm fuzzy feelings with Lauren
When Lauren is being a wonderful friend in conversation all you can say is a little "yay" or "yee" in response like an awkward butt. :') 

She's super generous and kind!! I'm grateful - I'm always happy to pay for my food but when we manage to catch up, she's been generously treating me and genuinely chats with me during lunch ;____; <3 Thank youuu

She is one of the loveliest and sweetest company! ^o^

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Friday, September 28, 2018

SuperListenMode: Low Hanging Fruit

SuperListenMode: Low Hanging Fruit
It's easy to be lazy, bring yourself down, hesitate, overthink, criticise, shame, procrastinate and give up to avoid failure.
Many important things in life take much more effort, focus, self care and purpose to reach, habitualise and practice as part of a life long learning journey.

Your stack of boxes is probably different. 
At the moment, some of these are mine.
Others are for example and as reminders for me.
I'll leave it up for interpretation ;)

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

SuperListenMode: But who are you though?!

SuperListenMode: But who are you though?!
"So how are things going with you blah blah..." 
Um...I still don’t know who you are...incredibly uncomfortable now!! Let me out of this situation!!
"...You still don’t know who I am?"

Monday, September 24, 2018

SuperListenMode: Marshmallow Dragon Leonie

SuperListenMode: Marshmallow Dragon Leonie 

Gotta bulk up with layers at home because heaters are a luxury expense ;P 
Super cold in the house.

But as someone of the Year of the Dragon, I get to breathe out smoke fumes whenever I exhale into the cold air ;)

I'm a Dragon at last!! ^o^ Pooof!


PS: I still don't have a phone set up since two weekends ago, waiting for something to come in the mail so...comment at the blog itself instead or email me for now :') Not having a phone and no social media at all continues!

Friday, September 21, 2018

SuperListenMode: Picky on Entertainment Consumption

SuperListenMode: Picky on Entertainment Consumption
At best I read the summary of a movie/book, read up on the development and lyrics of a song or watch a playthrough of a game just to satisfy my curiosity ;) Figure out if it's worth my time and meaningful to me. 

Sometimes I give something a chance, or have company to experience it with. Either I had a good entertaining journey or I feel mixed, start analysing its execution and intention and listen to the opinions of those more articulate and intelligent than I am to expand my understanding. 

"But you're supposed to experience it by watching/reading/playing!! What are you doing??"

Hey, most things aren't interesting enough to experience it for myself when compared to learning and making art, relaxing with streams or spending time with kind peeps ;D

I love watching people play long games, RPGs, JRPGs and story driven games because I don't usually have the time, desire, skill or patience to play them myself anymore ;____; 
Laziest way to experience a game - I'm just there for the story while the streamer experiences it :D 

One day I might try playing them again but we'll see.
There's some Switch games I'm actually interested to try! 
I'll eventually go back to reading my collection of real and digital books too!


Wednesday, September 19, 2018

SuperListenMode: You Got This!

SuperListenMode: You Got This!
Because we all need encouragement to keep going when things feel tough, hopeless and overwhelming. It happens every now and then.
It'll be okay <3

Even if you don't believe it yet. 
This is growing and learning pains. 
Take things in stride.
Take some time away to relax.
You will find your way and pick yourself up.
Things will get better.

Keep doing what you believe in and do your best!!
Stay kind and brave. <3

"You got this" is my awkward attempt at encouragement, without being invasive and presumptuous ;P

Yes I'm reminding myself too as with all my comics...I'm working on it :')


Monday, September 17, 2018

SuperListenMode: Embracing the Forever Alone meme

SuperListenMode: Embracing the Forever Alone Meme
When you don't fit in, even with people.
When you don't want to do what the majority is doing - you get sidelined.
Probably it's because I'm a cold, reserved, low energy, scared, boring jerk :')

That and I don't think I need to speak up, people forget I'm around and consequently I am a ghost. As much as I know I shouldn't feel this way, be so harsh on myself and make myself as small as possible. Hey it's my fault. 

Yes pushing one's comfort zone and going with the flow to bond with others is very important! I am super grateful for any invitations to social things too!

It means kind people remember I exist! <3

Friday, September 14, 2018

SuperListenMode: Fifth Wheel Rolling Away Again

SuperListenMode: Fifth Wheel Rolling Away Again!
Well it's what I do when I'm around people in relationships :')
Appreciate their lovely bond and let them do their thing. 
Super lovely to see glimpses of though.

Maybe I'll experience being in a lovely relationship myself one day but I'd rather avoid being an extra for too long. I feel like I'm in the way with any impromptu or potential intimate moments. Like an intruder. It's real life, not a movie!

Or I end up just talking to the one person I know better. 

I'm super awkward like that :<

Hey you know I'd prefer to deal with people individually and get to know them that way better first. When there's already an existing closer bond, I see them as a solid social unit rather than individual people...if that makes sense. 

And I'm not sure who to talk to and focus on :')


Wednesday, September 12, 2018

SuperListenMode: "I’m your replacement sent by Cyberlife"

SuperListenMode: "I’m your replacement sent by Cyberlife"
Whenever I read about AI making art through Machine Learning, 
I think: "what's the point of making art anymore" :') 
Yes made voxel art for this #DetroitBecomeHuman joke ;P

Monday, September 10, 2018

SuperListenMode: Little Social Life

SuperListenMode: Little Social Life
Not even online! :(

The downside of taking social media breaks and not doing much social things...it gets too quiet :') Have no idea what I'm missing out. Knowing it's going to take awhile to catch up and sadly learn what I've missed out when I get unblocked every now and then. You remember how the world keeps going on without you. 

Friday, September 7, 2018

SuperListenMode: I didn't make this

SuperListenMode: I didn't make this
When people think you did something amazing.
Noooo I take no credit! It's not meeeee!

I haven't done anything as noteworthy! :')

So...thanks for indirectly kicking my art butt! I got so much to learn!

Inspired by Nedroid/Anthony Clark's old famous comic that sprouted the I made this meme.

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

SuperListenMode: But I *was* at home

SuperListenMode: But I *was* at home

When a Coward calls out another Coward. Or maybe they were lazy.

It doesn't happen too much anymore as postal peeps are usually doing okay at their jobs. That said, we make sure someone is present for the delivery. Because we don't trust them that much ;P

But there was a time where deliveries kept getting "missed". 
They ghosted and promptly dumped the note instead.
Then I had to travel on a bus early in the morning on a Saturday to collect it. 

One instance, when I was collecting a package, I was sick...and a man walking with his dog asked me if I was okay. 
I was feeling faint. Sleepy. 
Was trying to keep consciousness.
Walking slowly. Trying to not fall over.
Forced to collect a package on my own over the weekend.
My nose was visibly running. 
I was struggling to hold onto this huge box I collected that is half of my height.
With my infamous old backpack on.   
I was rushing to catch my bus.

I missed my bus.

I told him I was not. 


Monday, September 3, 2018

SuperListenMode: It happens

SuperListenMode: It happens

I mean if they keep avoiding eye contact with you, actively keeping away, not interacting and not talking to you then it's pretty clear. Not a one-off thing that I can brush off. [I'm not calling out on anyone...this is part of socialising.]

Consequently, I feel like I'm the problem.

Friday, August 31, 2018

SuperListenMode: Mighty Bananas!

SuperListenMode: Mighty Bananas!
I steal enough bananas all at once for the week mwahahah!
Sometimes I take tangerines/mandarins too! GOSH!!

Thanks to my cool kind work buddy Scott Beca and generous Mighty for enabling this fruit intake at work <3

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

SuperListenMode: I want to go home, halp!

SuperListenMode: I want to go home, halp!

I'm too quiet...?

I'm trying to function actually :') 

I'm sorry.

As with many introverts, I'm sensitive to the presence of people and it drains me quick over time, especially the more people there are. My attempts to desensitise and push myself to hang around longer ends with me feeling exhausted, deadpan, irritable or at worse, upset. 

I need to remember that short, low key, 1 to 1/small-knit and convenient social things are best for me. Or something we can do or learn together, rather than focus on socialising hah ;)

Or just focus on a few people when it is a huge group social thing. 
That's hard though! Because there's more interesting people and things happening and I end up being just a quiet, tired follower. 

It feels like it doesn't matter if I was there at all .____.

But if I knew most people individually well and we're in a group together, then it's different. But hah that's rare ;P

Yes it's another take on an earlier SLM comic. ;P

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Tuesday, August 28, 2018

More BurpStickers 2018!

More BurpStickers for 2018!
I'll be giving these out to peeps after the CatBlob stickers run out and we're not at that point yet. There will be exceptions to those who already got them though! <3

Since I wanted to print these for myself at the least, I went back to printing with what I usually use [MOO]. They're not durable, thick stickers against scratches, wear and tear like the expensive CatBlob stickers but they turn out great anyhow :D

No plans to sell these ones on demand as most of them are fanart ;P
And as you know, I don't feel comfortable selling fanart.

Stickers are based on: